Saturday 13 December 2008

Bye Bye little red car Xiao Hong

Heh Heh.... i am so happy today, i brought a new car. Honda civic. its 1993 model. but i am very happy i tested out the vehicle.. one word WOW fucking powerful. though some little problem.

i don expect perfect condition for a second hand car. but i tell you the engine was in super good condition. air-con was too good to be just ok. as for the pick up speed. WOW you wont believe it fucking had a very powerful torque. no joke the throttle is fucking respondsive.

but i still need to service it i think next month its a fucking good bargain. only 7.800
left 3 year to go. Way to go man.

i felt sad coz my suzuki xiao hong. is going to be gone forever... though it fail me at time, its still my belove car. just now i left my car to take my new car. when i was about to go. i feel i cant bear to leave him there. my heart still feel heavy now. xiao hong if i still have the chance to see you again. i sure will take a picture with you. but, till then........

Stupid man

if you remember not long ago i talk about caleb. he actually call me but, i was in meeting. i ask he whatsup. he was saying my english improve but too many F*** words.

stupid Ass, fucking no baller. when i visit his blog again. his blog turn out to be for invited only.
fucking shit. fucking petty no baller. i regret regarding him as my friend. whatever thing happened already i would not say. but, now on you are on your own. caleb you are NOT MY FRIEND ANYMORE YOU HEAR...... over grown lizard!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday 4 December 2008

Scam

I just receive a scam call, saying that i won a lucky draw. at once i knew that was a scam.
Haha i can't stop laughting, why? i tell you, i press handsfree speaker, my boss and i were listening to what that china lady saying. Wahaha. she ask me where should she send the voucher to.

you know what i say? Hahaha, its singapore casket HAHAHA..... i cant stop laughting.

At the end she hang up the call, saying other people will send to me. HAHA stupid ass china lady.

Monday 24 November 2008

A friend of past....

Recently i talk to andrew ong my church friend. we talk about Caleb. caleb was asking me to return his guitar relaying the message through andrew. i was like shit!!!! from andrew i knew he was staying around toa payoh. cant he just meet me???

WTF, after that i heard from somone knowing the reason why caleb dont want me to meet him. caleb was saying i scolded him and all shit.. FUCK to you my friend. caleb yes to you i say FUCK to you. be a man. you are already 40 plus and keep talking like you are a KID.... keep on rejecting job. you don dare to FUCKING face your defeat. keep saying marsli let you down.

YOu know what??? i am very happy that she already move on. you are too weak to be with her. keep blaming her what she do to you. NOW i understand you keep saying this so you want people to pity you. FUCK YOU. you can die for all you want for all i care. i tell you if you ever want your guitar back. BE A MAN CALL ME. if not i will just throw it away. i don give a FUCK shit to you anymore.

and i got nothing to do with you or marsli. be advise you can just FUCK yourself, yes you did not read wrongly or i type wrongly go FUCK YOURSELF. you are no longer my friend. do not call me and explain yourself i have heard enough of your FUCKING pityful story. always about girl and invesment. nothing esle. in the end what you earn????? FUCKING loser over grown lizard.

Tuesday 28 October 2008

MAN of Love? Freedom????

I recently read about Dr Chee. I am Hurt, not saying i don agree with him. he is my type i fight till the end. you might feel strange why him???

I tell you something you might not know. why do you think ZHANG LIAO follow LU BU for??
Zhang liao is a person follow the path of a warrior. Lu Bu is the strongest man on earth that time.
You know what i mean??? THINK and you shall be elighten.

But if i am Dr Chee. i will fight in a more tactical way. thats all. NOT SAYING THAT he is stupid.
He is MORE CAPABLE of doing great things more in tactical way. I know he know what he is doing. you know something? having child seeing what daddy do this and that. having wife being artillary for Dr Chee, having family members support, all is NOT EASY........

If you are my wife and i do what Dr Chee do. Will you standby me???? WILL YA....???????

Friday 24 October 2008

I am

I am drain off day by day, night by night. second by second. my brain start to work at night. i don know how or why. but i am sad. for no reason. MY LORD saying is. For i am weak therefor i need God. But if i show away my weakness, my enemy Will infiltrate and i will be gone.

Clash eh? what to do? i need help. who can help me.
someone from outer space. perhap someone i know of in my memory?
Deddy once told me, sometime in certain part of your life. you need someone you are familiar with to get you through this down time of yours. First thing come to my mind is my Shi Fu SIR Steven.

I do not want to say much about the current problem the world is facing. But just in Singapore.
i show you why i like to learnt from HITLER AND STALIN.

How fortunate for governments that the people they administer don't think. Adolf Hitler
If you know what i Mean........

Thursday 23 October 2008

GOD REALLY ANSWER YOUR PRAYER

I hereby to confirm with you people out there, that are still wondering why your prayer have not been answer or something something. i tell you NOW!!!!

GOD ANSWER YOUR PRAYER. Its real and within second my sickness was heal, though still a bit of flu. how it works?? you people must be wondering eh?? hahaha

Last wednesday, i was sick with FLU, FEVER, HEADACHE, DIZZY. i see doctor, after taken the medicine it did not work i was sick throught the week. and last sunday, still feeling sick, i went to bath. i didn't realise that i am actually praying to GOD. i start to kneel down.

And this is the word i said. "MY LORD, I COME TO YOU, AS NAKED AS I AM, PLEASE HEAL ME, IN JESUS NAME AMEN" YOU KNOW before i said in JESUS NAME. i could feel kinda of a static charge off me. and i REALLY feel that my fever is gone headache gone, flu still left a bit but its very much better.

Today during caregroup i talk to Ah Goh, i told him everything. you know what. he also have the same exprience!!! HEY ITS TRUTH. we were both laught away. who would pray NAKEDLY?

But, i didn't shared it among my friend. a bit odd haha.

My LORD, i thank you for being there for me. I love you always LORD.

Tuesday 7 October 2008

Love???

I was thinking something lately.
Will you Love a peson who is willing to give you everything in him/her?
or will choose and Love a person that understand you the best and cant give you everything?


Tell me.......

For i am weak i cant understand. Now this is a challenge to me. even with my hard to crack brain cant decide. Things are a person willing to give you everything MIGHT NOT love you as deep.
Person who understand MIGHT come to love You deep, still cant give much.

Grrrragh........

Monday 6 October 2008

Places to Go

Well, i think my blog kinda boring... i don know why, maybe no pictures? well, whatever. just then i was browsing people blog. i saw very nice picture of different places. i love that. i wish i could save the money. and travel around. don know where i wanna be.

I love country side a lot. i wish i could stay there have my own home. live there and on. the world is so BIG. 世界如此宽,宽到我也迷失,失 去了方向........

Monday 29 September 2008

Think REAL hard

i did not sleep the whole day. 290908, 0607hrs. don know why. i keep thinking real hard, but, the strange thing is i don even know why. i am like this for some time already. could it be i have becoming another person? if it is, what is it then? i don have the answer now. my love, my life, my mind all in a real mess.

I met deddy not long ago (my best mate) he too, mess up. well, he is the only one on earth that know me. everything. back then way in 1997. i met him, he learnt Taekwondo from me. we train together and all. talk about life, and everything on earth. his cousin train with us too. and early this year. he told me his cousin commited sucide. i was shock. i feel very hurt. My student is death i could not believe it.

I am thinking do people still use strategy? if so, what are they thinking? is it good or bad? i mean their intend. action and execution can be the same but, starting off can be very different. If you know what i mean. lately my cat chang chang is sick, some kind of red patches over him. i feel sad very sad. coz i love him so much and the thing is i don know what to do with it. he already 10 years old. i am very scare that one day he will leave me. Will my cat go heaven? My Lord I pray to you if chang chang were to leave me here. PLEASE TAKE HIM WITH YOU. CONSIDER I BEG YOU IN THIS, IF HE DON MET YOU IN HEAVEN, I AM WILLING TO EXCHANGE MY LIFE FOR THAT. AMEN.

My Lord, i know i sin everyday, i know you forgive everyday. but, just help me not to everyday. i notice some people do thing out of some Vow or Oath they made, or rules to follow. but, then is that all in their heart? or just because of the oath or vow? now if they just do it out of vow or oath. can it be real they are? i learnt something. only throught conplete observation can one only understand. but some just base on something and SOMETHING ONLY. thats not very right. My lord you told me put others first before myself. I know you know i always do that. and in that you always are my soource. so all i have to give it all. My Lord. i am loyal to you no matter what happened. you know that. and i know you know that.

People see that way i act and some how there's some impression in them. i feel them My lord. is this good thing? i feel they think i don understand the bible well. but My Lord. you know i know your words. My Lord, i can i serve you more so. people die for a cause they believe. by doing so they think thats the way for they. My Lord can this be right? for me there's no wrong or right. just different view thats all.

Later My Lord....

Friday 29 August 2008

Heart, love, mind.

I have been thinking much lately. i don even know what i am thinking. sound weird huh..... i misses my good old days. with my primary school friend. but, they are gone.

each with their family to feed and all. what all have been done may have been forgotten. i know i should not dwell in all this. and maybe i should think of how i want my life to be. i just call caleb, he is not the way he use to be. he dwell in it too much unable to get out. i feel very sad for him.

when i was with diane, after church the three of us will go out together. we talk and all and everything. have fun during those time. thats just 4 years back...... thee are too mant sad people around me and i know i am already affected by them. i feel them i can feel them. and its starting to affect my thinking too......

What should i do.

Monday 25 August 2008

Bejing 2008

i am back.... haha i know i have not write in sometime. i try to keep up ok. haha.
anyway i know some people out there are very hurt and i don know whats wrong but be sure that i will pray for you whoever you are.

my life recently is in a mess. man i cant believe whats going. sigh........ long story.
i watch the event on Taekwondo in bejing 2008. well very disappointed. its not like my training in the good old days. i train 3 time hard than that. my instructor always wanted me to go for knock out. so training was so tough.... sweat like nobody business.

now, i seldom train anymore. sad thing to say.

well i think thats all

See you later mate.....

Monday 21 July 2008

Heart of me

Hi all, lately i was thinking about the security of my country. i was thinking of nowaday, people mind are all about money. They stress and problem come out. But, compare to the lives of billion and billion of people in the world how they think about that? comparing to the problem they have in mind.

i cannot denied the fact, people worry for their family. yes its true that without money they cant buy food and all. But as they are trying ways to earn money. who are the one that risk their life to protect the place where they can peacefully go around??

I was once in the regular in military force, back then, i don feel what i was feeling now. i really REGRETED. i should have been in there till now. how i wish i am now. protect people from harm, protect my country. But i get negative feed back. They say this is stupid thinking. Even my family say that every man is for their own. i totally DISAGREE.

we are safe now because some brave man have give their life in exchange of it. CAN YOU DENIED THIS FACT?? Well if you denied i cant say much........

Tuesday 24 June 2008

Hey

i'm back, haha... actually i been busy for a while with nothing muhahaha....
just lazy and nothing to update. i brought my Xbox360 already. and i am enjoying it to its MAX...
ninja gaiden 2 is out and i have completed it already. now on mentor mode= hard mode.
a lot of thing happened to me lately but i chose to let all go. well my spear have do me well.
God must have spend a little more time on me..
THANK YOU MY LORD...... AMEN

Friday 2 May 2008

The Big Picture of all

I just read caleb blog. saying thing like many thing price went up. I know to certain people in singapore is hard to cope. i wish for a change in the matter. what i mean here is not about the price going up or down. I mean if i were to just compain about the price. That will be a very small part in me.



I am just a normal person, i know its hard on everyone of us. but, think of the others side if you can. Price go up, yes i know. but, i WILL take this as a positive energy to work harder. improve myself. Look, if after i improve myself and work hard, i will get more reward in a way. (you have to think) taking thing the way they are, can be good and bad. For us, what is most important? money right? yes i know. if you worry JUST ONLY ABOUT MONEY, FAMILY MEMBERS TO BE FEED. i will and can say its a high mature level of thinking person you are. NOW COMES THE PART. Our country is RULE BY ABLE MAN. THEY HAVE EVEN MORE THING TO CONSIDER, SERCURITY, MAINTAIN SAFETY IN SINGAPORE.



I cant say anything bad about them. though i do not understand why this and that (about the price and all) but, i know they are also tying hard on their end. If as a commoner, i cannot contribute to my country, so tell me what am i living for?



Now many will think, no money how to live? pratical right? I BOLDLY SAY YES AND NO. WHY? ASK OURSELVE WHERE ARE WE RIGHT NOW???? IF YOU DO NOT HAVE A PLACE. HOW YOU EARN YOUR PAY? WHERE FROM?

No country no family. no family, no next generation......

Thursday 1 May 2008

Brain works

I notice that, sometime when a person is feeling low. and needed some one to talk to. and find no one it is a painful process. but, if you find some one to talk to, but, that person does no even know you and say something to make you worst (not on purpose). you will even feel the pain as if it hit harder. but, when the person is close to you, and in the person mind anticipate your action or what's is in your mind. which is not true. The pain is the most of all. i felt that.... really hard for me to cope.

I try to press it down. but it rebound. fighting a rebound is not easy. Coz it depend on the force of the rebound, it can really do some damage if it hit hard. and if you are not able to mini the force which cause by the rebound. then you are in for it. The thing is how one should mini the rebound when the person know its coming and not much ways to do it.

I am sad real sad, and i do not know why, i try hard to think in a very netural way. meaning its like your soul out of your body. but, your body is still moving. your soul are watching it. sometime its just to hard. what should i do? .................

Tuesday 15 April 2008

world of virus

nothing much for me to update. very boring........ sick and sick and sick
SIGH........................

Sunday 13 April 2008

Feel the feel...

此行此路以料也,从周始至今未逢心,也在今时露吐言, 心也不回非之无, 难之言语无心联

此举以有久时计,伪何今时露真面,真情时久以成恹。。。。

Thursday 3 April 2008

A new Spear...

Investigation after another, just within the 2 case i took. i break one already. but they did not keep their promise giving me what i should get. whatever I DO, I DO IN THE NAME OF JUSTISE. They even give me so much good praises. i don want to be with them anymore. i am moving forward.

Just some feeling that i have tells me not to believe in my boss. which in fact its true. empty promise.

Saturday 29 March 2008

Curse Spear??

i dont know my spear will serve me well or not. looking at things these few days. i cant set it. too early to say. but, one thing for sure i know this is what i like. i do love it. but, sometime not.........

Sunday 23 March 2008

Investigation Time.....

hey man i'm back!!!!!!!! ha ha, i found a spear which i was really looking forward to. i hope it will serve me well. for me to proceed, to move on. even right now i am very happy i think more than word that could possibly say. spear spear spear.......... hahaha........... my family looks better now.

i pray to my lord, and thats just work... haha..... MY LORD THANK YOU SO MUCH..... you know i never give you up. but, i am dissappointed with some of your people. (sorry MY LORD) this word not pertaining to you.

i just realise that my army company was SPEAR. haha....... so good and just right muhahaha.... i starting to understand myself just a little more. hahaha........ if a person is close to me i cant accept he or she to made mistake. (mean not taking thing for it) i mean need to have that FEEL. This is very important. if mistake done i will depend on the situation to decide. Lets call it play it by ear. (hope i say it right)

Saturday 15 March 2008

My family....

I dont know whats wrong with my mom and sister. its just too hard on the both of them. one say this and that. WHAT IS FUCKING WRONG OVER HERE.................................... family doesnt look like and behave like one.....

My brother even say something that should not be said. even in front of my parent. they didnt do anything. thats just NOT FUCKING RIGHT. WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON HERE....... cant everything be just right no more no less JUST RIGHT????? sigh................ I think i'm just trying to hard, changing thing that seem impossible to change...... FUCKING STUDY TILL PHD, and now want to do bussiness then go study how to do bussiness. what a reason. study is good but, thats just for knowledge. like i told my brother. working on something isnt just need study in that sense. need more hand on and exprience. need to work from the bottom. not just getting a cert, and start from the center of it.

whatever, i don care anymore, (sound like caleb) ha ha sorry for that. just need to write or type it some where.

Tuesday 4 March 2008

My Memory.

I don't know why, i dreamt of Hui jun my primary school friend. she is a girl shao hui ( one of best pal last time) love so much last time. But, some how hui jun doesn't like him. slowly they drifted apart. i remember once shao hui told me, hui jun was the most perfect girl to him. she study good very nice girl, make a very good wife type of girl. most man will love her.

i don know, she just have that charm to shao hui. in the end, shao hui got married not with hui jun. i wonder how hui jun have been all this years. kinda miss her. i remember once she invited me and yuan hai, to east coast BBQ. thats was very long long time ago. we have fun and all.

the reason i write this, is just wanted to know how well i could try to discribe my memory. in certain part of my brain, i just could not bring it out in words. but i must keep trying.....

Monday 3 March 2008

心事.........

此路行程易难言,苦咽心头以成恹。事实难以转回前,何苦一再要改变?

我者以有梦里现,可否一日能长绵?父母之命难可违?是否真可独当面?

Wednesday 27 February 2008

Back to square one..

Well, i remember i ORD from the army in the year 2005. my first job was a private investigator. and i think thats the best job i ever have in my life. i miss those time and everything of it. my boss David and patrick. both are good and kind, first i really fucking dislike patrick. but later i kinda become more closer to him. but whatever it is. its over. today while i was looking for a new job i found this PI job again.

i don know why i buy the newpaper in the first place. but, seem like God know my heart After all these years. actually with all my skill and courage. i boldly say that no one could ever be like me. no one will have the guts to charge the car to max. beat red light, chase on foot and all. no one snipe like i do. patient i have while i snipe. all and all its me being me. my boss like me so much. BUT, because i have a super bad temper later days i quit due to certain reason.

Actually i really regret, i realise that what ever job i have after the PI, all is worthless. i miss being with them. i remember i went to sydney for a week. i call them up, this show i really into it and i can't let go of it. i miss the job. i love my boss.........

Thursday 21 February 2008

New year eve...

hey i'm back. you know new year eve, i was helping my dad selling his noodle. was super busy, i have met countless of customer so be it, super nasty or good MEAN nothing to me. but, got one uncle far more worst than evil himself, shouted at me. asking why he waited for so long. well, i tell you, i tell him very nicely i say in hokkien. can you talk nicely? he don give a damn. i got hot, but still supressing my inner devil. my dad, usually super hot temper, clam the whole thing down. but, that stupid ass uncle, went on and on shouting and talking cock. scolded us bastard. i was REAL HOT now. you know what. my dad burst out shiting him all the bad words you could not ever imagine. in the public. last i know from my parent that this uncle was a doctor. SHIT HIM MAN. this is how he should do thing??? fuck him. in the end i shit him too. hahaha. what i'm so happy about if you ask. thats the first time my dad and i combine forces to shit someone. that stupid doctor FOR REAL RUN AWAY hahahahaha..... Now i know my dad and mom. they really suffer a lot from younger days till now. i can see the picture from old days. they really getting older. I NOW MAKE THIS PRAYER TO MY FATHER IN HEAVEN. FATHER, MY LORD, IF THERE'S ONE THING YOU CAN GIVE ME, IF I CAN, SACRIFY MY LIFE AND PROLONG MY FAMILY LIFE LONGER..... I HAVE NO REGRET.. I HAVE LET THEM DOWN SO MANY TIME COUNTLESS OF TIME. I HOPE THIS WILL COMPENSATE THEM... MY LORD, MY KING. IN JESUS POWERFUL NAME I PRAY AMEN.

Sunday 10 February 2008

Set me free.....

If I leave here tomorrow Would you still remember me? For I must be travelling on, now, 'Cause there's too many places I've got to see. But, if I stayed here with you, girl, Things just couldn't be the same. 'Cause I'm as free as a bird now, And this bird you can not change. Lord knows, I can't change.
Bye, bye, its been a sweet love. Though this feeling I can't change. But please don't take it badly, 'Cause Lord knows I'm to blame. But, if I stayed here with you girl, Things just couldn't be the same. Cause I'm as free as a bird now, And this bird you'll never change. And this bird you can not change. Lord knows, I can't change. Lord help me, I can't change.

Sunday 3 February 2008

Real thing behind your WORDS

Well, recently i try to notice more onto people words, i mean what they say. sometime even after i know of something. but i just want someone to say it honestly to me i will FORGIVE. but if not i find it very hard for me to accept. i know that i'm a christian i should forgive anyone. in this particular part i'm still trying. why do people hide things from anyone? many reason, but, he more common reason is doing it without letting you knowing. in a way testing of searching deep in you and try to make certain concludsion in you. ggggggrrrrrrr.................. THATS UNACCEPTABLE. but i could not do anything to it. what fuck??????????????? what is wrong with this people man...... fucking shit........ i don give a damn now anymore. i live the way i want to live isn't it anyone esle wanted? but due to certain circumstances, people CHANGE.... we let people stick their finger onto our nose and tell us what to do. and when thing happen. its always because of him or she. coward do that but I AM NOT. if you think you're worth for, then go out and get what you are worth for BUT, you must be willing to TAKE the HIT.

Thursday 31 January 2008

PSP bible

guess what yesterday i was having dinner with my church friends. same old thing we talk about God. my grilfriend give me a memory stick as a present. 4G MS, but, guess what it cant play on my PSP. though disappointed, i try to search the net for some help. Suddenly i have this funny ideal, can i put my bible in my PSP? so i search again. Guess what!!!!!! i found it it was years ago people have that thought already haha. last time i use to think i wanted a O2 phone so badly so i can download bible in it. now i have it all HAHAHAHAHAHA THANK YOU MY FATHER IN HEAVEN YYYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOO..

save me some money. ke ke, nothing compare to this will be more happier than anything hahaha. no words could ever express my feeling right now hahaha. so happy.

Monday 28 January 2008

Power is nothing without JUSTICE

I suddenly remember something. when i was young back in 1991. i acted in my school Heng Ah Keng Bong primary school. i was acting a hero that catches a pick pocket. i was dominated to act hero. somehow it link to 2006 i caught a robber. i was awarded a medal by DPM Wong Kan Seng. how it happened was the day before the event took place. i was praying to God. i tell God that all these years i learn Taekwondo, my sense of justice like have been wasted. i was praying to God let my this talent be use to his kingdom. and on 7 aug 2006 my holy birthday the day after i prayed. later that night i caught a robber, robbing a lady hang bag. after i caught him, i was being ask by the police am i willing to be the witness of it and i go all the way, to help in whatever ways i could. i was there in the witness room in court. The robber plead guilty. and i was not being sumon to the witness stand to testify against the robber. what really make me sad was, the family members of the robber not a single one turn up to his hearing. according to the IO ( Investigation officer) the robber family have already given up hope on him. upon hearing this somehow i was sad. i start to ponder if i caught him was right or wrong?

Given up on him. i did not pray for him though, i hope he learn his lesson. by saying all this is not to show off myself but to show GOD LISTEN AND WATCH WHAT YOU DO EVERY SINGLE SECOND. so do not let your guard down. i know its very common to say this in fact all chirstian should know that God is everywhere, everytime, every place. Yes even when your in the toilet (sorry for that) you know something most of the time i question God. God why this why that. but let you people know that at all time i am SUPER LOYAL TO GOD. though during worship time i laugh and didn't sing the song. but it does not prove that i disrespect him. i just don sing thats all. its the heart that matter. somewhere in the bible also say this but, i don know where. (God look at heart not the appearance.) to show God you listen to him by doing what he want you to do? to do what? i really don know. Sometime during church activity, i question myself, is this what God want us to do or is it just some tactic to win the soul over for God? i cant get this thing straight.

I talk to willy before hope i spell correctly his name. he say God is mercyful, if you hunger he will let you know. i believe that. there is something here if you did not think, FAITH is all time involve in all things. no faith no believe no trust no God. now i realise something is that if i reverst the order trust, believe, faith. take the first letter of every word it become this TBF. mean TRUST=TO, BELIEVE=BE, FAITH=FAITHFUL. of coz this is just what i thought of never know i always have this in mind. somehow i think God want me to attend church. beside all the problem i have in the church. now when i say i think it mean TO ME not to anyone who want to believe. if you want by all mean.

A person....

I read someone blog i known of.. saw the pictures. felt its was very fortunate. i think i made a very right choice to leave her... I know i some how set something free to let it breath again. Come to think to it. just like my cat. most of the time Chang Chang (my cat name) was running wondering around outside my house. though i feel unsafe most of the time. i still let it go. if i also kept him at home don let it have its freedom, its isn't fair. God give every single thing freedom. some use wisely some not. My church GTC, people most are caring and certain is holy and more is more holy. ( not to mention who haha) here is something i wanna say. be it you take it as draft or anything. i don care.... ^_^ i feel very heavy recently. don know why. i met teck keong yesterday night try to fix his computer. sorry no luck have to buy new LCD. when i see teck keong tired as always. i feel he is some how weaken in some area. i don know whats wrong with him. but when i see him everytime i feel i am somehow renew by him. HE IS A VERY GOOD BROTHER TO ME. mercyful, relax one thing he is very kind hearted in a way i love him. ( hey i'm not gay ok haha)

The way i am....

As you go through life you'll see, there is so much that be, don understand....... And the only thing we know it's things don't always goes, the way we plan. But you see, everyday people work and stay alive, do thing as they are and do with pride.... As for one filled with hope filled with everything we are, but we forget everything are as one..........

If there's so much that can be, can i just still be me?..... the way i am........

above its just a song that i some how remember... keke ^_^ the rest? i forgotten haha...
i had just read caleb's blog a bit sad to know that his van was sold away. a van with much memory. i know aleb must be in despair. nothing except God can help him. As chirstian we all know the fact. but, most of the time i also will question why this and that. but the question here is. In what kind of attitude am i asking God. He build us many things.... too many of them....
Its the spirit of the heart that is the real thing not the question. Like i had said before, there was once i pick my sons up. ( have not seen them for sometime) when i met them they call me UNCLE. hahaha.... i was not sad not angry just feel it was fun.. ^_^ many in typical MAY say i'm crazy. but, something like. i call my father (in blood) FATHER. but in my heart i don regard him as my father THERE IS A VERY BIG DIFFERENT HERE. so that explain the way i am......

Thursday 17 January 2008

Answer....

Hello, i'm back. heh heh, i was studying myself for a certain period of time now. i know that i have been thinking a lot. normal people cannot really UNDERSTAND what i have explain. they find it hard to accept. because what they know, it all along in them. maybe from their background, what they been through, or sometime worst, its been taught to them since young. now, what i'm asking here is don we have a brain? must it be this or that? why cant we really answer what people ask? there are 2 answer normally. first the person that question. it will depend what the questioner want the answer from you. or answer in acoordance to your OWN thinking. it happened to me just yesterday. when my friend ask me, IF I EVER ASK GOD FOR HELP? well, i answer in the 2nd option i mention above my OWN thinking. but half way during the explainaion i was stop... why? my friend say again. " its just a simple question why make it complicated?" "i just want to know yes or no" in this case, what he want is totally different from he asking. i am trying to explain myself though it may take a bit of time but, people are just filtering the answer thats really in your mind. IS THIS FAIR? now if you say again the world is never fair. then might as well die better right? there is certain fairness like i say. of coz its just a matter of time....

Monday 14 January 2008

Sima Yi

I think most guys will know Sima Yi. he is another brillant strategist beside Zhuge Liang. many will think that Zhuge Liang is the most smartest guy. but, in fact it is not. whatever Zhuge Liang can think of, Sima Yi can always have a way to prevent it. the real fact is Sima Yi is better. many people think that Zhuge Liang is sided with Liu Bei coz of his greatness. but, in warring state who does not want to conquer a country? whoever will use lots of method. then in this case who is right? who are we to judge? In many game or book, Sima Yi is often describe as proud, but i fact its not. who does not have their own thinking? people nowadays always fix thing as for thing they are. no one will look at it the way that is not normal. but how normal is normal? how not normal is not normal? i always have second thought for things. its in me and i think i wont go very wrong with that. just that someone have to be very observance with it. so far so good and i'm lucky. ok till then....

Sunday 13 January 2008

Year Wish

This year i want a breakthrough!!! In every thing i do. tomorrow i am packing up my room lo... heh heh, its very untidy but i think MOST guys are like that?? i think so. ha ha. i did not write anything these days coz i'm sick. now that i'm ok i try to write a lot more thing that i can write YAHOOOOOOOOOOOO........

Wednesday 9 January 2008

Well what a year....

Hi i'm back. i'm sick through out the 2nd week of year 2008. i was having high fever, 38.9 wow.. thats high though. strange thing is i was feeling active not weak. but, later days during my sickness. i notice that my thinking was slow. not like my normal self. i hate that. i sleep a lot during my sick period. Guess what? yeaterday when i was looking into the mirror, i got a shock, i saw a younger version of me. man my face really look younger. maybe all these days sleep regain my health bit by bit. well thats it i wanna sleep early and wake up early. that way i can at the very least get younger a bit. heh heh.... ^_^ at any rate yu ming been release out on the 7 jan 2008. i wanna save some money for him so he can study, and more so he can be a great help to me in my work. i pray to my Lord King of King. i commit my brother to your hand. in Jesus Mighty NAME I PRAY AMEN.

Tuesday 1 January 2008

A New Hope....

A long time ago, in a galaxy far far away. i was in the watchnight service in GTC. the pastor all was talking about, what we want from this 2008 year. i pray and i hope it will alll happen. the spear i lost in 2007, i know i will in no time find a better and more powerful spear. muhaha.... anyway on 29 dec 2007, teck keong got married with siew yee. they all are very happy of course. Teck keong was so happy, i did not know that he know how to play er-hu. a kind of chinese violin. he didn't played for 8 years according to him. but, he played it qiute well. power man... way to go. during the last day, i saw the cat, run faster to it normal hidding place. i was telling him that i may not see him in future. i was sad. he sleep the wgole day. anyway i was very happy to see him during my last day and not others. i pray he will be in better life after i'm not around. i know he will... coz God will protect and keep him safe from harm.