Saturday 29 March 2008

Curse Spear??

i dont know my spear will serve me well or not. looking at things these few days. i cant set it. too early to say. but, one thing for sure i know this is what i like. i do love it. but, sometime not.........

Sunday 23 March 2008

Investigation Time.....

hey man i'm back!!!!!!!! ha ha, i found a spear which i was really looking forward to. i hope it will serve me well. for me to proceed, to move on. even right now i am very happy i think more than word that could possibly say. spear spear spear.......... hahaha........... my family looks better now.

i pray to my lord, and thats just work... haha..... MY LORD THANK YOU SO MUCH..... you know i never give you up. but, i am dissappointed with some of your people. (sorry MY LORD) this word not pertaining to you.

i just realise that my army company was SPEAR. haha....... so good and just right muhahaha.... i starting to understand myself just a little more. hahaha........ if a person is close to me i cant accept he or she to made mistake. (mean not taking thing for it) i mean need to have that FEEL. This is very important. if mistake done i will depend on the situation to decide. Lets call it play it by ear. (hope i say it right)

Saturday 15 March 2008

My family....

I dont know whats wrong with my mom and sister. its just too hard on the both of them. one say this and that. WHAT IS FUCKING WRONG OVER HERE.................................... family doesnt look like and behave like one.....

My brother even say something that should not be said. even in front of my parent. they didnt do anything. thats just NOT FUCKING RIGHT. WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON HERE....... cant everything be just right no more no less JUST RIGHT????? sigh................ I think i'm just trying to hard, changing thing that seem impossible to change...... FUCKING STUDY TILL PHD, and now want to do bussiness then go study how to do bussiness. what a reason. study is good but, thats just for knowledge. like i told my brother. working on something isnt just need study in that sense. need more hand on and exprience. need to work from the bottom. not just getting a cert, and start from the center of it.

whatever, i don care anymore, (sound like caleb) ha ha sorry for that. just need to write or type it some where.

Tuesday 4 March 2008

My Memory.

I don't know why, i dreamt of Hui jun my primary school friend. she is a girl shao hui ( one of best pal last time) love so much last time. But, some how hui jun doesn't like him. slowly they drifted apart. i remember once shao hui told me, hui jun was the most perfect girl to him. she study good very nice girl, make a very good wife type of girl. most man will love her.

i don know, she just have that charm to shao hui. in the end, shao hui got married not with hui jun. i wonder how hui jun have been all this years. kinda miss her. i remember once she invited me and yuan hai, to east coast BBQ. thats was very long long time ago. we have fun and all.

the reason i write this, is just wanted to know how well i could try to discribe my memory. in certain part of my brain, i just could not bring it out in words. but i must keep trying.....

Monday 3 March 2008

心事.........

此路行程易难言,苦咽心头以成恹。事实难以转回前,何苦一再要改变?

我者以有梦里现,可否一日能长绵?父母之命难可违?是否真可独当面?