251212 0427Hrs

A lonely christmas, raining.... i feel heavy.... actually wanted to spend it with my love but no more.... well, guess i have finish the trial...

End of the world is indeed bull shit... a lot people making up story this and that. Its only through thick and thin, u will see a person true heart. guess that very true.... but for me be it or not i always give it all, and now feeling sad again.....

guess im stupid enough to fall for it again.

241212 1441Hrs

This year im gonna get my ccnp :) the good lord please help me :) But Lonely Christmas....

241212 1231Hrs

Sigh i thought this year christmas will be so nice and warm :( someone just destroy it again....

Fuck that. Go and be the way you are. when thing gets better, someone will love me for who i am.

Any way thanks for accompany me those period of time.

231212 1656Hrs

What the hell is this all happening again. really what the fuck. Not a caring person thats all she say. fine, go ahead. i have been telling you, and you still wanna be like this. go ahead

you are just wasting my time. really go forward and move on to your next guy. i don wanna be so stupid again to keep chasing. i am tired.

May god bless you.

191212 1021Hrs

I was on my way to client site at bugis, guess who I saw? its Catherine, Sylvia second sister. she was with her daughter baby Karen. :) she call me and Karen was actually waving at me haha,

never seen Karen for a while since sometime back. she still remember me :)the whole event last about 1 to 2 minutes.

I do get funny thought, weird and sad feeling :( what is this all about man :(

well at least for that moment only.....
  

131212 1130 Hrs

131212 1048Hrs

I met a broken girl, knowing she was cheated and heart broken for the lie and hurts for the last five years. I stay with her giving her everything I have. In sometime later, some how I knew she wont be loving me back.

But I still care for her. She is afraid of thunder, whenever it sound off I would hold her in my arms, and cover her ear, making sure she feel safe... and days to come whenever its raining if I am not anywhere near her, I will text her to be careful. My feeling grow so strongly for broken girl.... whenever I am sleeping with broken girl in the middle of the night, I would sit beside her watching broken girl sleep. I feel safe and for a moment I close my eyes.

I've give broken girl a present I don't think anyone of her ex could give. I have met broken girl's mom and grandmom. Both don like me.... because I am poor, I don have the financial power.broken girl hide it away, I never knew that... till the day broken girl told me about it. broken girl told me she have dated a few guys... my heart is very very broken, my knight armor shed into pieces... leaving my so open up to attacks.... in my heart I was so afraid and lost and hopeless, lonely......

I pray to God to give me strength to love unconditionally. but I fail.... I left broken girl, broken girl cry very hard for the first time. my heart became soft again.... holding her in my arms again.... But just to let broken girl hurt me again....

................. I really wish you good from the bottom of my heart.

I wish broken girl will have a blessed and wonderful life she wish for... broken girl left me with a happy heart now.....

I am left over with broken heart....

131212 0945Hrs

I was suppose to write something yesterday 121212. But no time haha.... today I reach office, nothing to do again. slowly this place is becoming walking dead... few of my comrade left... I am demoralize. what good is there to stay?....

I have come to this place for a new start new life. But all it seems now is becoming worst.... maybe perhaps God want me to go through this trial again? My Lord, for you know my loyalty for you. I have lost a very good comrade for me.. Alvin Ang.... and recently I lost my motivation again. Its so damn hard for me to just keep it up.

Recently I've been researching on zodiac, why do I even have to be born on this day.... date..... Why the FUCK am I so different from others?????  FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sigh..... never mind I will pick my bag up again and step by step inch out to my dream. my dream the northern light... I know I might not make it, but, I would die try.... even if it mean I have to go alone.... of coz in my heart I really wish I could go with my love.... but then again.... well lets stop here.... coz I know it wont help anything anymore.....

I am losing my grip....  even I am losing it, I would still help anyone that needed help.... a lot people say that I am stupid.... but I really don know why I will help and I give my all to it too.... why I am build like this???   why am I born like this? I don think its of my parent coz they are not that helpful, though helpful. Can someone just point me in the right direction?

A lot people look at me I am a very happy person and without problem trouble and all. But, people deep in me I don know how I should tell you its killing me inside and none have seen it. when I am very close with you then you might see. for now I would just be what it is....

271112 2321Hrs

I have not been updating for awhile.... again this is going no where... but i guess this will be harder. God telling me i should let go the past.... i should since i let it go le.... :)

This time its hard, i knew it will get harder. well lets see.... i don want to be such fool anymore....

271112 1703Hrs

http://www.buzzle.com/articles/facts-about-aquarius.html

231112 1632Hrs

One Aquarian was ready to do a suicidal jump when he found another man there. The Aquarian persuaded the man to give up such 'evil' idea, pumping a lot of will power, optimism and that man went away happily. Then the Aquarian jumped off the cliff! Aquarian gives hope, life happiness, optimism to others even if he does not find them in his life

181112 2200Hrs

後來　我總算學會了如何去愛　可惜你早已遠去　消失在人海　後來　終於在眼淚中明白　有些人　一旦錯過就不再 梔子花白花瓣　落在我藍色百褶裙上 愛你　你輕聲說　我低下頭聞見一陣芬芳 那個永恆的夜晚　十七歲仲夏　你吻我的那個夜晚 讓我往後的時光　每當有感嘆　總想起當天的星光 那時候的愛情　為什麼就能那樣簡單 而又是為什麼　人年少時　一定要讓深愛的人受傷 在這相似的深夜裡　你是否一樣　也在靜靜追悔感傷 如果當時我們能　不那麼倔強　現在也不那麼遺憾 你都如何回憶我　帶著笑或是很沉默　這些年來　有沒有人能讓你不寂寞  永遠不會再重來　有一個男孩　愛著那個女孩...

051112 1713HRS

In life, God doesn't give you the people you want, instead he gives you the people you need. To teach you, to hurt you, to love you, and make you exactly the way you should be

 

091012 1253Hrs

Its been awhile... I saw fin and her boyfriend facebook they look happy :) Good looks like father in heaven have blessed them :) Hope this continue.

I don know about Sylvia, i wsh that happened to her too.

Sally how about you? are you getting on well? :)

210912 1205Hrs

Hey haha i am back :) I missed you :) Do you know? When you talk to me i am happy :)

090912 2242Hrs

这一场　倾盆大雨　救不了　守夜的我

往事的镜头　慢动作重播　每一个　你的　停格

你的发　是为谁剪　心疼你　憔悴的脸

你一定哭过　挣扎了很久　我猜他对你不错

抢救你的爱　你别说　你还是　很快乐

他不可能给你幸福的

跟命运交手　输的是我　我拼了命还是迟了

抢救你的爱　你别说　会永远想念我

我早已不是他的对手　就算爱情不可能复活

你别说　亲爱的　再见了

080912 1803Hrs

Generally speaking Aquarians are: communicative, thoughtful & caring, co-operative, dependable, scientific, independent in thought & action, magnetic, inventive, loyal but rarely jealous. They can also be tactless & rude, eccentric, self-interested, lack conviction and voyeuristic.
Aquarius men are very independent people, they like their space in relationships, they are very smart, and love a women whom they can have intellectual conversations with. They fall in love with a woman who is understanding, caring, encouraging and positive, and dosent rush him into things. He likes an independent woman who also has a life of her own. No one controlling, or obsessive.
They are great boyfriends and very action orientated. Its hard for them to express themselves verbally but do not blame him for this. Plus, actions always speak louder than words. :)
Be patient with him, interested in his everyday life, and always stay postitive and encouraging. Most importantly Always act like a lady. They love feminine ladies, whom they respect.

he’ll seldom bother to check whether they’re appropriate for the
occasion. He’ll show up barefoot if he feels like it, and laugh at you for laughing at him. Aquarians often deliberately adopt weird attire to show their refusal to conform

040912 0127Hrs

I cannot sleep i don know why..... i have been in the company for 2 month lo.... happy and angry in a way... Like i told sylvia i didnt know there is still such good and almost perfect girls out there after i left her...

I feel much happier now :) hahaha my brain is killing me though... i have this problem since i was a kid.... i know my brain is so much more powerful at night..... i don even know why..... maybe God forbi me from using it from things he don know me to.... and in one way i understand..... if i have the power i might abuse...

Thank God for loving me..... God though i always sin against you. but you keep forgiving me.... God if one day i really cannot take it anymore. I humbly ask of you please have mercy on me.....

recently i met a girl from my working friend. Her name is christine Goh, hope i get her name correct.  i disturb her haha sms her haha.. till she cannot take it haha.... i like to disturb people yay hahaha.....

all this while i'm been living in a life of lies.... she lie to her mom grandmom and family..... she been through that but still put me throught it... sigh.... luckily i realise it, and walk away... she been toying with my feeling..... well, good luck. coz i still pray for you. she is just so bad in someways..... still have the cheek to hide things from her mom and grandmom.... because of her impression is so good in her family...... living your life in lies??? 

when one day everything been found out lets see if you can take it. for i am always direct and straight forward. i never even thing of hurting anyone.

Fin i have been praying for you. but you yourself have to let go the fear. simply you didnt recover and just step into the relationship.. now you are facing problem, you keep blaming your fear..... i have and did told you at the beginning of our break up. but you choose not to listen. cant blame you also.  i understand. if you have step out of the mental state you are in now you can see better.

Sally i am sorry that i could not love you. just simply you are just so perfect. i know you don mind. but, simply i could not believe good things happened to me too. i have to reject you. for the condition you are right now. you should find some one on par with you. for me..... i can only say that i don deserve good things in a way.

If i ever have a chance, i would live my life good and no bad habbit. God i love you.... if i never come to know you..... i think i will be just a low life...... but you have make me become strong in faith. :) Lord of lord King of king. I love you.

020912 1323Hrs

Hmmmm...... So is she interested? or just i think too much? well, let it be man.....

310812 2034Hrs

A woman loyalty is tested when her man got nothing. A man loyalty is tested when he got everything....

300812 1849Hrs

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Gji_GtyCNo&feature=related

290812 2335Hrs

i have return everything to you. my heart will die and never return to you. today onward, you live your life towards what you want. nothing of you i will concern.

290812 1050Hrs

Ni da yin wo de wo duo ji de..... dan shi ni que wang le ni de cheng nuo......

270812 1034Hrs

Where are all my comrade? Grey..................................................................

270812 1023Hrs

Here I am waiting


Abide in me I pray

Here I am longing

For You

Hide me in Your love

Bring me to my knees

May I know Jesus

More and more
Come live in me

All my life

Take over
Come breathe in me

I will rise

On eagle’s wings

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mVEvD30e5yc

250812 1334Hrs

just now meeting my boss praise me in front everyone muhahaha.... say that i as a new engineer got praise by the COO of At-sunrice. And still tell those engineer who have been there for years before me, " don see that Jack like Ah Beng Ah Beng, but he is up there. and a lot of client and customer like him a lot. I don know why the client and customer like him so much. but everything is very good"

My Boss mention to everyone also, i am the only engineer that is handling account before i have any training and say i am official secondary person in charge of At-Sunrice. haha. i didnt know i was this good..... I just merely do what i do :) Thank you my lord for concerning me :) all praise goes to you :)

Looks like my Luck have change :) the darkest days of my life have been lifted by God. God because of your grace, your mercy, and your great LOVE... :) Thank you :)

When i started this job the first day, i was so down in spirit, coz some thing happened. i Lost my support from someone i loved..... and i felt even more down when in my company, many people left...... but, God reassure that i am who i am :) i love you my Lord :) you show me tremendous Love patient care and concern. :)  There's so much you give :) my Lord once again i cannot thank you enough :)

I don know if its you that send someone that know me so much. but yet again, she is not a believer.....
My lord you say before fear you is the beginning of wisdom.... i started to feel that, that really is in me a little now :)

I been praying to those i hurt and those that hurt me almost every night. have a good life with your partner and live your life well. i will keep praying :) Letting go and forgiving and forgetting sound simple yet again its not. But with the strength of God you can :)  

230812 1214Hrs

:) yay hahahahaha... didnt expect that i would meet someone like this..... :) before we met, thats so near yet so far. been going to care group in uncle gab and chee cheong fan place at pasir ris. you are at pasir ris too. its like out of no where you pop out hahaha.... and in God name really just this close half door open up.... in my heart.

But precisely thats just too fast, i really thank you for that real concern, care and love you gave me :) and everything about you was just so real. financially, love, character, taste, upmost important the love in your heart and we think 95% alike...

Thats just goes beyond what mortal words can express :) i finally realise that this is a real thing :) the love and being love. and love..... :)

But the old wound i have, please understand..... i do not want you to think like i am wanting you to do whatever i like. but, given your condition...... given your everything. given your heart and soul. is in every single way exceeded my expectation. And i didnt even expect anything. BUT YOU GAVE EVERYTHING THING......

I am in awe..... and cannot move a inch. coz you are just so freaking perfect.... till now you have met my church friends. you should know :) you keep praising me..... i am knowlegdable, kind, pure heart, witty, very street smart. Justise, have a powerful mind... even your most hard to crack friend find me good.

you know all this? you and your friends and me are in total out of this world, our world are so different. But yet you and your friends find i am such a good person. it really shock me so much..... in the past, i always thought people with degree in academic is very different from people like me.
But, you and your friend prove otherwise...... i lost my words....... so powerful man really. you know something?.... you are really in my soul and mind, just without completing the sentences we know what we want to say..... thats just so freaking amazing!!!!!!!!!

Wanting to buy me a smart phone, and doing what to contribute... is the heart and thought that count :) Thank you so much that you love me this much and all..... i really have already put you into my mind.... i believe in time, you will be in my heart :)

Hug you Sally :)

My Posthumous Name

忠武: "Loyal and Martial" 

No wonder people say i am justice haha. not trying to be proud but this is real.

230812 1125Hrs

Guo Jia was born in the county of Yangdi (present-day Yuzhou, Henan). He initially sought a position under Yuan Shao, the most powerful warlord in northern China at that time. However, he judged Yuan Shao to be an indecisive man who did not know how to fully make use of talented people. Thinking that Yuan Shao had little hope of achieving great things, Guo Jia left his service.

In 196, Guo Jia was recommended to Cao Cao by Xun Yu. After a discussion about the state of China at that time, both found each other likable. Cao Cao then made Guo Jia his military advisor.

During the campaign against Lü Bu in 198, Cao Cao's force won three consecutive battles, forcing his enemy to retreat and fortify itself within the city of Xiapi. By then Cao Cao's troops were exhausted from fighting, and he intended to withdraw. However, Guo Jia persuaded Cao Cao to press on and not give Lü Bu time to recuperate. Cao Cao took the advice and ultimately prevailed against his opponent.

In 200, Cao Cao confronted Yuan Shao's forces at the Battle of Guandu, leaving his base city Xuchang sparsely guarded. Seeing this opportunity, Sun Ce, a warlord in the south, planned to move north and attack Xuchang. Everyone despaired at the news, but Guo Jia foretold that Sun Ce, being proud and impulsive, would be killed by his own people before reaching Xuchang. True to his prediction, Sun Ce was assassinated before he could even cross the Yangtze River. Cao Cao then scored a great victory against Yuan Shao, solidifying his position as the strongest warlord in the north.

After losing the Battle of Guandu, Yuan Shao soon died. His legacy was contested between two of his sons, Yuan Tan and Yuan Shang. Many urged Cao Cao to seize the opportunity to root out the heirs. However, Guo Jia advised Cao Cao to turn his attention south to attack Liu Biao in Jing Province and let the brothers destroy themselves in battle with each other.

Cao Cao accepted Guo Jia's counsel and prepared for a campaign against Liu Biao. The Yuan brothers did indeed wear themselves out, resulting in the overmatched Yuan Tan seeking Cao Cao's aid. Cao Cao moved his force north again and easily defeated Yuan Shang, who escaped to Tadun, chief of the Wuhuan tribes. Cao Cao then conquered Yuan Tan in Nanpi and took control of Ji Province.

At this time, Cao Cao intended to launch an expedition deep into the north to eradicate Yuan Shang and the Wuhuan tribes, but many feared that Liu Biao would attack from the south. Guo Jia encouraged Cao Cao to quickly take up the expedition to prevent a resurgence of Yuan Shang's power. Under Guo Jia's counsel, the army travelled light, leaving behind the bulk of supplies. The resulting swift strike caught the Wuhuan unprepared in the Battle of White Wolf Mountain. Tadun was killed and Yuan Shang went into exile in present-day Heilongjiang and Jilin.

Guo Jia died of a sickness in 207 at the young age of 37. He was conferred the posthumous title of "Marquis Zhen" (贞侯). A year later, after Cao Cao was defeated at the Battle of Red Cliffs, he lamented, "If Fengxiao (Guo Jia's style name) were alive, I would not be in this state."

220812 1100Hrs

There was nothing to say the day she left


I just filled a suitcase full of regrets

I hailed a taxi in the rain

Looking for some place to ease the pain, ooh

Then like an answered prayer

I turned around and found you there

 You really know where to start

Fixing a broken heart

You really know what to do

Your emotional tools can`t cure any fool

Whose dreams have fallen apart

Fixing a broken heart


Ever could understand what I'm going through

There must be a plan that led me to you

Cause of the hurt just disappears

In every moment you are near, yeah

Just like an answered prayer

You make the loneliness easy to bear



Soon the rain will stop falling baby

Let's I'll forget the past

'cause here we are at last

220812 1052Hrs

不確定就別親吻 感情很容易毀了一個人


一個人若不夠狠 愛淡了不離不棄多殘忍

Don't kiss if you are unsure, Feelings can too easily destroy a person

If one is not ruthless enough, When love fades away, still staying together is even more cruel than leaving



你留下來的垃圾 我一天一天總會丟完的

我甚至真心真意的祝福 永恆在你的身上先發生

The mess you left behind, I will slowly finish clearing all of them away for you

I even sincerely hope that, Eternity happens in your life first before it happens in mine



你還是要幸福 你千萬不要再招惹別人哭

所有錯誤從我這裏落幕 別跟著我 銘心 刻骨

You must still live happily ever after. Don't make another dear ones cry again.

All your mistakes stop here with me. Leave me, and let this love forever be remembered.



你還是要幸福 我才能確定我還得很清楚

確定自己再也不會佔據 你的篇幅

明天 開始 這一切都結束

You must still live happily ever after. Only then can I be sure I've returned all that I've owed you.

Sure that I will no longer have a place in any part of your life

Starting from tomorrow onwards, All of this will end



還我鑰匙的備份 我覺得再見可以很單純

我甚至真心真意的祝福 永恆在你的身上先發生

Return me your copy of my house keys. I think the next time we meet, it can be as friends

I even sincerely hope that Eternal love finds you before it finds me



你還是要幸福 你千萬不要再招惹別人哭

所有錯誤從我這裏落幕 別跟著我 銘心 刻骨

You must still live happily ever after. Don't make another dear ones cry again.

All your mistakes stop here with me. Leave me, and let this love forever be remembered.



你還是要幸福 我才能確定我還得很清楚

確定自己再也不會佔據 你的篇幅

明天 開始 這一切都結束

You must still live happily ever after. Only then can I be sure I've returned all that I've owed you.

Sure that I will no longer have a place in any part of your life.

Starting from tomorrow onwards, All of this will end.



你還是要幸福 你千萬不要再招惹別人哭

所有錯誤從我這裏落幕 別跟著我 銘心 刻骨

You must still live happily ever after. Don't make another dear ones cry again.

All your mistakes stop here with me. Leave me, and let this love forever be remembered.



你如果很幸福 半夜的簡訊我就無需回覆

因為你的悲喜已經有了 容身之處 我也 能有 最純粹的孤獨 最孤獨的孤獨

If you live happy ever after, I won't need to reply the message I received late at night.

Because you would already have found a place for all your sorrows and joys.

And I, would also be able to, have the purest form of loneliness. The loneliest of loneliness.

090812 1426Hrs

zhi dao shuo you de meng yi po shui, cai kan Jian ni de yan lei he hou hui......  wu shi duo xiang zai gei ni ji hui, duo xiang wen ni jiu jing ai shui.....

Ji rang ai nan fen shi fei, jiu bie tao bi yong gan mian tui..... gei le ta de xin ni shi fo neng gou yao de hui............

090812 1417Hrs

National day :) yesterday, me maro and ah boon go for a drink :) haha nice :) looks like my life getting a little better :) also yesterday i was not in a very good mood.... but better now :)


.... do take care :) i didnt pray for you yesterday..... sorry.... but u should be good from now on :) My friend say i should pray for myself.... But the me i am i just cannot be selfish..... i help others willingly i don hold it.... thats just me the way i am....

As you goes through life you'll see, there is so much that be... don understand.....
And the only thing we know is things don always goes.... the way we plan....
Is there so much i can be, can i just still be me??? the way i am......

Da Gong Wu Si....... She Sheng Wei Ren..... Jue Wu Wei Ji.......

080812 2024Hrs

On august 6th, i was working in suntec. while i was troubleshooting the server... my nose start to bleed. i didnt even realise.... my friend got scare.... hahaha. i think i am seriously injured.....

050812 1951Hrs

I am very sorry i hurt you in a way. i never wanted that. God bless you.....

030812 2304Hrs

When two people comes from two of different world, comes together.... its is fate. Yuan Fen... Must we be so logical till all things a black and white? .... You come and go, she leave and stay.... I thank you for doing so.... i see you.... feel you.... lastly love you.....but the love part have die off.....

010812 0931Hrs

I am sick fever flu..... in jan time.... someone show the love.... i miss that and i tell myself i wish to be sick like this so i can fall into her hands again.... but time passed and people change.... so i stood where i was and pick up and walk again .... :)

290712 2204Hrs

You were fortunate enough to be born under the humanitarian zodiac sign of Aquarius. You are therefore ruled by electric and progressive Uranus making you forward thinking and self-directed. You’re a born revolutionary so no one can tell you how to live your life. Your clear-cut approach makes it perfectly clear just how differently you wish to experience life.

You just don’t want to be like others and take pride in the fact that you’re so unique. Even if you’re occasionally criticized for your cheeky attitude, you’d far prefer to be self-sufficient rather than being a sheep in society who follows everyone else’s lead.

You are a zesty individual, having tremendous amounts of energy. You are determined and forceful in how you deal with people. You want to express your ground-breaking spirit in everything you do but unfortunately you won’t always able to break free of the limits that are imposed upon you. Some Aquarians learn through their family life that before you can be the master of your own destiny, you have to serve. In some extreme cases Aquarians are controlled and dominated by others throughout the formative period of their lives which is why it’s so difficult for them to submit to others.

If you’re not able to live your life on your own terms, you’ll dream and aspire to a future time when you can fulfill your destiny to the fullest in exactly the way you want. You have very inspirational views of the world and even if your opinions are too different, you’ll always be respected for speaking your mind honestly.

You share your zodiac sign with many other grand personalities. Like them you are attracted to social issues. You like to be involved in groups and organizations that make a difference in society. Even in the smallest of ways, you will try to make some difference in this world. If you look at Aquarians like Oprah Winfrey, Boris Yeltsin and entertainers like Peter Gabriel and John Travolta, they are deeply interested in changing the awareness of people to make the world a better place.

Because you have great organizational and communication skills you work really well with others. You have your own ideas and solutions to problems. Others are surprised at your quirky approach and how you resolve these issues.

You’re investigative, curious and extremely active mentally. Your thinking mind rarely, if ever, stops. You need to learn when to shut down as your brain can become overactive, especially at night.

Communication is your specialty and you relate well to the world. You will continue to enlarge your active personality so don’t try to suppress your true character – just express it prudently. You’re vigorous in the way you present your ideas so there’s never a dull moment around you. There’s often someone who wants to challenge you, especially if they happen to have a much more conventional way of doing things. You’ll be more than happy to challenge that taking great pleasure in proving them wrong.

Uranus, your planetary ruler, is abrupt and breathtaking by nature and will fill your life with plenty of unanticipated surprises - good and not so good. You like it like this and the unexpected is something you thrive upon! Even if you have a stable home or work situation you like to shake things up from time to time to keep everyone on their toes. Still, you’re very loyal when it comes to your most personal relationships.

You like to create a comfortable environment in which to live. Venus influences your domestic sphere so you have a flair for design and color. Your surroundings mirror your unique character. Others are amazed at the way you decorate your home. There’ll be nothing ordinary about it, that’s for sure.

Your far-reaching attitudes overwhelm your friends sometimes and they sometimes refer to you as harmlessly “mad”. Salvador Dali the famous painter once remarked about himself - "The only difference between me and a madman is that I'm not mad!" Even if he wasn't an Aquarius - this sums you up perfectly.

You find it difficult to uphold relationships with those who aren’t prepared to evolve in the same way as yourself. Due to this you’ll be continually re-inventing yourself, trying to stimulate your friends to be better. Your rigid opinions bring you into disagreement with others. One of the laws of power suggests that you must act like others, but don’t always openly air your thoughts. It’s a good idea for you to keep some of their sweeping ideals tucked away until you test the water first.

There’s a universal quality about you. Although you appear aloof and detached you're inwardly sensitive and caring. You prefer to associate with people who share the same diverse views on life. Your life will almost certainly never be drab. You are able to embrace anything new including music and fashion. This is why you’ll always be young at heart.

Being born between the 1st and 9th February may mean that your friends have a hard time keeping up with you as you evolve so rapidly that it makes their head spin.  Then there will be others who will try to hold you back from your headlong rush to conquer the world.  There's an old saying that you might want to keep in mind which says "think as you like, but act like others" and this may be necessary if your ways are just a little too hard for people to keep up with

290712 2149Hrs

I have starting praying for you since 100712.... i hope you will be touch by love more than the thing you value now.... you will be bless..... :)

270712 1030Hrs

Why the hell i keep feel up and down like roller coaster..... ??????  Kill my heart......

250712 2350Hrs

AQUARIUS MAN
Hot-hearted man who likes to do thing his way. He can suddenly decide to do something without thinking of it’s outcome. He is the type of guy with an inside energizer, so if you fall in love with this type of guy be “patient”, even if you have to follow him a bit. His creative mind could create fantastic idea any time. If you do not understand or can not follow him, you won’t be with him for long.
A man in this Zodiac will less likely to have a pale skin, and if he has a scar, it would be on his face or on his head. He moves very fast and very energetic, and he has a very self confident in himself. He is not the type to sit down and feel sorry or regret anything for long, especially with “Love”. He loves justice. He dares to show his opinion or even argue about certain subject even he knows it might bring him problems. A straight forward type of guy.
He hardly lies except if he think it is necessary and he is not a good liar anyway. He will not lie to you about serious matter, but if he lie he will lie only a small little thing. He is gifted with the ability to be a very social person. He could talk even about subject that he has no knowledge of. He interests only at the present time and look at the world positively. Many times he feels hurt because of reality, but he will not run away and he will overcome that difficulty.
Even he is a high and self confident type and center his own thought as a main focus, but at the same time he is a kind, cute and polite guy. He certainly is not a mean person. He likes to help people who are in troubles even he is not asked to. He is the type who feels sorry if you remember bad things he said to you that he had already forgotten,but you did not. Belief him that he is very sorry and give him another chance.
Once he decides to do something, he will put all his mind and energy in it either in his “Work”, or “Love”. He is the type who gamble anything in the casino, so do not even take him there. He does not like pessimistic, low energy, and depress person, especially no brain. Strangely he like to overpowered this type of people to assure that he is more superior.
He like to be the first person to do something. You can see sparkling in his eyes, once he meet a new target or new lover. Once he is in love, he will be sincere and true till his last breath. This minute he could be real sugar sweet, and later he could also be an icy cold, but do not blame him for that will only chase him away. He could really love someone, but not a heart broken type for he thinks love is “excitement” and “Love goes on”.
If you date this kind of guy, do not or avoid showing your face to him with face pack, face mask, always be presentable, nice and cute. If he is quiet not because he is shy, but he is only quietly thinking. If you have a chance to ask his X-girlfriend, she will tell you that he is not a shy or quiet type. If he is really and truly in love with you, he will never lie to you at all. How do you know if he loves you, bet on your faith! Love him and treat him steadily and do not try to find anything to argue with him, he will be with you for sure.
If you are his lover or girlfriend and need to tell him something, go and say it out loud and straight forward because he hate long boring story. He hate to play games, chasing for love or being chased, so let him call you first. He likes a confident woman who also a good follower. If he gets mad at you, let him be for only a short time he will be normal again. You have to like and be able to get along with his friends, but he does not have to do so with all your friends.
Don’t ever think you could make him jealous by flirting with other man, he will just leave instead of making a scene because he is a confident man and has to be the first in everything.

250712 2312Hrs

aquarius people are very depressed and sensible people and get hurt easily but never show it

250712 2133Hrs

Banu this is for you haha.... the head line say it all.... but from what i understand from you this period of time. you do have strong character... but your mental strength still need to refine :) you might not understand now but once the time is long enough you will understand.... for the time being just keep my words in mind :)

230712 2215Hrs

Before i leave this place, for some training i will return the phone to you...... i have come to realize you are not mine.... wo zhong yu ming bai.... ni chong tuo dao wei, mei zhen zhen ai guo wo, ni yi lu yi lai, duo ba wo dang sha gua. wo hai yi wei, ni zhen de ai wo... zhen shi bu zhi de....

yuan ni neng gou de dao zhen zheng de xing fu :)

210712 1518Hrs

If being together with me becomes a burden to you, and you wish to have a pair of wings.... i feel you inside out... i understand you have been suppressing yourself.... its like a bird lost sight and sense of direction....  and if our romance have become silent.....i am willing to let you go and becoming single again... and if our promise have lost it value...that i would not hesitate any longer to hold you up.....

In the world there's a type of love called... LET IT GO.... for love i give up my only choice i can make..... for love i give up being with you, for love i let forever lasting go..... for you..... and i lost you..... i have to be cruel to you once.... to make you realize.... ....... ...... if leaving you mean you can have everything again.... i am willing..... to go.....Click.......T_T

180712 2113Hrs

weeks pass no sms from her..... well, 50% i am gone..... when i misses you i always sms you... when you don say those words to me..... i feel very sadden..... sometime when my friends sms me misses me.... i take it like those words are from you...... i feel happy...

whenever raining i will sms you careful of thunder...... whenever i am lonely you are no where to be found.... 080712.... your new love started..... thats where i can never ever share my woman with others... from the beginning till the end.... you never been honest with me about your inner heart feeling.... you know that you will hurt me..... but you continue to do so........  listen to this...... my heart just explode...

and the only person in this world that can hear this.... is ME.... none else....

all in all i will pray for you that you are bless..... i will not hate you, will not curse you..... i wish and pray you are all well :)

16012 0753Hrs

Guard your heart and stay on guard is one very important factor if you wanna stay alive in this heartless world... but God command me to show love to people through him.... :) though hurtful, still feel great in helping people :) after all this time, i feel endless heartache..... how can loving someone you loved so much be a pain???

surely that isnt love..... there's a saying, if you love someone with everything, that does not mean they will love you the way you love them. true enough.... but it also do not mean you can hurt him or her......

knowing what is the problem yet choose to hurt..... you think is fun?? or???

i have empower you the right to hurt me..... knowing it you still choose to hurt me.... sigh.... guess i will have no choice but to steadyfast my heart. be on guard....

i use to protect my country with all my blood and heart and souls.... and i am hurt by the people i protect.....

God say let us be his salt and light... show the love of God... his Grace is enough for us :) salt preserve things from going bad..... light is to show people that are trap in the darkness to get out of darkness..

what use then.... if salt lost its saltiness and light become dark? 

i have try to bring the best of you but you say you cant do it.... then what more can i say..... you are just not willing..... someone will love you the way you are. so you wont be lonely :) till then enjoy :)

150712 1506Hrs

things will get better :) yay.... someone coming man :) :( but why am i still low in spirit.... my comrade... where are you guys man..... today stay home watch movies.... soon there will be no more HTC to use... coz i am returning it to someone...... no problem..... my new friend buying a new HTC for me yay yay.... happy... hug hug........... :)

someone happy only... see if this are up to HER EXPECTATION.... pure heart vs money and life style....... well i stay true to myself..... thats why i got hurt.... sigh..... guess this is it le.....

stand strong is one thing... but, i am for sure going to finish strong yay !!!!! :) I don wanna wear my knight armor le..... so tired.... but i have a new set of armor :) this is good :) this time is about my bare fist and the pure metal armor :) yay :) no sword and shield.... just me and the armor :)

Though i know i might get hurt again...... still i cannot be selfish... i will give my all again..... 100%..... coz i see you are willing...... you are real :) lets hold our hands together and move forward....

its not about how hard you can hit, its about how hard you get hit, STAND UP AND MOVE FORWARD AGAIN...... THATS HOW   "WILL"   IS DONE.. :)

someone don love me as who i am.... well thats alright... coz God have given a she to me :) Love you Lord :) 

150712 1502Hrs

Never play with the feelings of others because you may win the game but the risk is that you will surely lose that person for a life time...........

140712 1708Hrs

have someone accompany...... i have push myself ...... bu zhi de....

130712 1406Hrs

reading up some stuff in the office. but things still comes into mind..... i freaking hate this weakness of mine.... perhap i have think too much..... all thing have a start and all things will come to an end.... is about what you feel at the end that make you feel what you feel now..... not about how you feel at the moment...

Its all lies.... and it keeps going... how many time do i have to take this?   i regretted  i did not move on feb 29.... it hurt till now...... if i did on feb 29.... all will be different......  i think i will be a much better happier person......  then again, if not for this... all these wont happened..... i guess all thing have a reason.... but no matter how hard i try i cant find it out.....

110712 2254Hrs

loving with expectation??? well its not worth to love in this condition...... someone have become a victim..... he will never know......

other factor? BS..... all BS...... U been all time like this and i been tolerating it. still u think u are faultless? or not at fault? u of all people know that well but u keep doing it to someone that love u so much..... your family, your value, your money, your judgment. everything is you you you......

even you know its not fair. but, you kept it going..... till the day come..... you can say whatever you want. you can say you can take it and everything..... and when THAT day come..... don you ever cried.... coz the person that have been willing to do that for you. has die.....

thinking that you start this anew mean it will be good? you just kept hurting people heart.... and it will never end till you find your heart in peace

100712 2016Hrs

remember i did told you.... i say if you miss me sms me.... but from start to end you never did...... and i say you will forget....... true enough...... saying you will try hard not to hurt me..... but you just did it again.....

God bless you :)

100712 2011Hrs

it hurt seeing that statement..... its ok... i wont see you anymore this time i wont turn back..... i wont be hoping anymore...... this time i will kill it...... do take care and really do.

If ever one day come, i know you wont even think. i will pray that you will lost all traces of me..... i will make sure i do that..... last.... love you.......

wish i never met you.............

Jack

090712 2019Hrs

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with every day
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear


I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

070712 1242Hrs

i am very heart broken........ i think i really could not take it anymore...... sorry....................................................................................................
sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry

030712 2004Hrs

Second day of new work :) happy :) but class not started yet. coz not enough people haha. sigh..... bb got BF lo.... all the best ba... saturday got BBQ what sia :) hahahaha. got to know a few friends. a number of Filipino...... 

290612 1704Hrs

if i have you as a person but i cannot have your heart, even i have the whole world i wont be happy.
i ask of you, love me once. and you will never regret trying.

during in trouble time, then you will be able to know, if the person have a true heart for you.....

239612 (250612) 1607Hrs

I have a talk with bb, somehow i understand and again i don understand. i bring her to east coast she likes it there :) the very first place i steal her kiss.... In time to come i dont think she will  REALLY FEEL that FEELING anymore....

Soon she will have a boyfriend..... and i wil have to start my new job next week.. happy same time feel a little fear..... fear is because behind me, there isnt anymore support.... a LOVE i am so serious about....
BB told me not to wait for her..... i really don know if i could do that... i will try..... T_T.....
If is God that want u to come into my life, i wont blame him for teaching  me a lesson....  the heart i have for u is so real and pure.... never sway, never weavering.... Its really so wasted and pity that we neve finish the journey together...

wo zhi ke yi shuo, hao hao de guo ni de ren sheng..... yi ge heng ai heng ai ni de ren......

170612 0103Hrs

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ljevYM7qdVM&feature=g-vrec

For you...

150612 1607Hrs

BB :) though i don know why have we become like this.... some LOVE just unable to use words to express. I would say i fall into that category.... U say you cannot give me your heart.... i accept it with million of regret.... i understand from the beginning, you choose bread over LOVE. in my heart i knew i will get hurt... but i choose to love you... as who you are..... coz LOVE is a very powerful gift our lord in heaven gave us.... after many things happened you wonder.... why do i still love you...

I tell you now, coz i have great respect for LOVE, THE VOW, LOVE you no matter are you sick, poor, rich, or status different. LOVE is so great that bind 2 person becoming one... That strength bring me here.....

yesterday you ask me to start seeing someone else..... it really broke my heart further...... i never drop a tears even fighting some tough guy and lost..... i never drop a tears even when i feel very sad from others.... but i drop my tears in front of you..... i remember you say i was like your second boyfriend.... and you don want to let the same thing happened again..... i was so very happy, i really believe that.... but after this lesson.... word can no longer express my feeling....... i understand the fact we are not married, you have the choice of getting to know more Guy friends...... it hurt me...... but i wont let you know how much it pain me.....

you tell me you met 3 of them and none ask you to be his girlfriend....... i ask you if you like them.... you say plus minus......

BB, do me a favor pls try your very best to forget me......... i know it ill be hard.......after i start my new job..... the only free time i have is sunday.... i was hoping to hug you touch you, feel you ..... :) my dearest BB sayang you hug you kiss you :)

Go out and spread your wings, if you are tired, or injured, make your way here. I will safe guard you waiting for you........

150612 1247Hrs

I ask bb to go to MBS to have dinner. The place that i miss so much. that night she is tired and we sit down on the chair, she fall asleep on my shoulder. after that we walk back to take my car.... kiss you on your fore head be well and safe.....

140612 2006Hrs

bb is seeing someone else.... it really really broke my heart so much........ but i will learn to pick myself up and go..... for the last time BB wo ai ni  T_T   ....... may your future be fill with laughter and bless....

120612 1831Hrs

Just now while i was watching tv. i saw the MBS scene... i drop my tears.... that was the first date i ever went out with bb after we officially together...i remember the laser show the story...  everything change after some incident happened.... i still remember we eat at the food court.

bb is wearing the yellow shirt, the same as my birthday.... i miss that so much.... yesterday i saw bb still wearing the necklace i brought for her... i miss that.... i love that.... but somehow i know my heart can only have one person in my life.....

110612 2213Hrs

We retreat to become friends. thought it will be better. but just now after dinner worst thing happened. i offer bb to drive her home but she reject... i wait with her in the bus stop. just merely talking she became angry bus came and head off without saying bye...

fine, have at you..... anyway damage have been done...

200512 2010Hrs

its so freaking painful...... loving the wrong girl...... i am very heart broken so hard and pain...............................................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

200512 1944Hrs

why after i cried so hard le still sad?..just now i hear thunder i straight away think of bb scare of thunder.... why do i still have this feeling???? God pls give me peace in my heart......................

200512 1729Hrs

xin ruo juan liao
lei ye gan liao
zhe fen shen qing nan she nan liao
ceng jing yong you tian huang di lao
yi bu jian ni mu mu you zhao zhao
zhe yi fen qing yong yuan nan liao
yuan lai shi hai neng zai du yong bao
ai yi ge ren
ru he si shou dao lao
zen yang mian dui yi qie
wo bu zhi dao
hui yi guo qu tong ku den xiang si wang bu liao
wei he ni hai lai bo dong wo xin tiao
ai ni zen me neng liao
jin ye de ni ying gai ming liao
yuan nan liao
qing nan liao

Click listen
Xin bu liao qing

200512 1601Hrs

Unstable relationship.... today seem so long.... where are all my comrade? where is my love? shall i say is all over? this is what i get.... sigh.... relax jack.... not the end of world better ones are coming just hang on.... someone will love you for who you are.... love you the same as you love her.... Rose and little john is afraid of jack in the beginning, but at last they love jack... though jack is a murderer, they understood the essential of the thing.... why on earth am i hurt??? no one anymore.... put your armor back jack, i have given you a new set of armor and shield and sword. this time protect it with care... don let anyone simply let you off guard... yes my master i will, now i will cry hard for few days and in God name i will never drop a tears..... jack be strong, you are always strong, be glad that you made it this far..... none of any typical guys can have the endurance you have for the girl..... you are not poor in heart, you are not in your mind, you are not poor in money.understood that jack? yes master.... so how do i kill my heart for that girl? jack do what you have to do,no killing revenge and pay back.... yes master i wont as you know..... good jack cry if you have to for now after few days you will be a totally new guy.... :) yes master :)

200512 0809Hrs

got chase out by bb.... this is the second time. thing i wont do to you. but you do it to hurt me. after hurting me convince i am in the wrong i have to say sorry.... what a joke.... since you so perfect go ahead and look for your perfect one..... this time i will not look back.. i walk back alone heart broken and disappointed, walk alone in a no man street. this is what i get from the gil i love with my full heart. condemn me like this.... you are god? this is how you judge feel and decide... good for you... i will not curse you, one day when you have your heart eaten out... you don regret what you have done to hurt someone that love you with everything. 200512 is the worst i ever had in a while.... Got chase out from bb house... every single time i have to give in.... i am tired of this shit....

130512 2031Hrs

the tremendous pressure i have is none can understand..... i love her so much yet. she is so unstable.... never care enough for me... sigh....... GGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

160412 0947Hrs

yesterday bb and i have a great time :) bb say sorry to me.... being cruel to me but i still love her so much she is touch :)

yay BB i love you :)

we work hard together so no need to say sorry anymore :)

090412 1052Hrs A Silence Love

a story i just saw....

a girl name peng... and her deaf and mute father ah kim.. every day morning Kim wake up early send peng to school, he send her by his motor bike. when alight Kim show some hand sign. Peng walk away... when during lunch time in school, a classmate of Peng wrote on a paper "daughter of a stupid deaf mute father" paste it on her back...
she got angry and fight... later that night... Kim was having diner with her. show some hand sign... Peng walk away... in peng she only wish that she can have a better father.... she got frustrated....

Peng came home late with her boyfriend sending her back... Kim angry show some hand sign... Peng run up to her room... that night was Peng birthday. Kim brought a cake.
he wrote a note. "peng i am not a perfect father, i am born mute and deaf i am very very very sorry.... but i am a father that love you with every single thing of me. without withhold" "Love from papa Kim"

suddenly a sound came out from Peng Room.. Kim run up and try opening the door, it was lock. Kim bash through it. found Peng cut her wrist... Kim rush her to hospital...

when the nurse and doctor rush her to the operating theater.... Kim show a lot hand sign... the doctor was very touch and stunned by Kim act....

The hang sign show to the doctor was... "PLEASE SAVE MY DAUGHTER I GIVE YOU MY HOUSE, MY NOODLE STORE, MY MOTOR BIKE, AND MY LIFE AS A SLAVE TO YOU JUST SAVE MY DAUGHTER PLEASE DOCTOR PLEASE I BEG YOU, YOU HAVE TO SAVE HER."

when the nurse say to the doctor Peng is losing a lot blood. Kim show hand sign.. " PLEASE TAKE MY BLOOD NOW!!!!!!!!! "

In the midst of transferring blood.. all things become clear... During Kim send Peng to school... "Study hard Peng, then you will have a good future"

during dinner " you must eat more peng, so you will grow taller and taller and grow up faster"

during Peng came home Late... "Peng i know you are angry with father, but watch your time. its late father is very worried about you."

Now peng is lying beside her father.... she move her hand to hold on to her father hand.... but just to see her father is lying there with his eyes close... Peng cried so hard.... and wish she never ever wish she wanted a better father....
and she realize she already have a very very very good father all along.... is just that she didnt notice it until things happened..

050412 1419Hrs

things have change.... somehow i know..... its a miracle that we are together.... pls don make it harder for me..... we are so good yet feeling a little far.... cang zai wo xin li, zhui hou yi ju qi shi hai ai ni.....

050412 1224Hrs

bb be happy la, what is so wrong that you must be like this? did i do something wrong again? just what is wrong?????? sigh.................................................................................................................................................

050412 1213Hrs

Be still..... jack you are being a fool for this...... why are you being such weakling.... you used to be smart, carefree, happy laugh about at almost everything, what have you become?.....

040412 1658Hrs

I really am curse..... feeling something i am not suppose to feel.... a restricted zone..... thought sometime i could use it to help people, when it comes to me.... it hurt coz i knew the person motive and what they wanna to. i did nothing to stop them....

yesterday it happened to my mother towards me... sigh sad but truth.... i know whats her intention. yet i cannot stop.... its a curse....

040412 1648Hrs

Being emotional honest is damn hard.....

040412 0023hrs

when you ask me a question, i answer, you are only giving two option that you ask.. and when my answer is different.... you seem not interested to hear... spoiling the whole day spoiling the mood.....

knowing you are tired you don talk much.... i always put myself in your position think for you and this is what i get?.... great.... are you tired to the extend that after 4 days of not seeing me you got nothing to say to me?....

but you have the strength to work??? this is totally what i cannot understand.... if this is you then get going.... missing you and longing to see you mean nothing to you...

i hope you know what you are doing.... it seems like you want thing your way to me... cant see the different? you are just been unreasonable sometime... most of the time you don even know or what you say have impact on me....

isnt that you want thing your way?????? is this the way you love me?....... i know after hearing this you will be uncomfortable.... imagine how i was feeling inside.....its worst....

270312 0128Hrs

Loving unconditionally is not easy, and not hard either.... it is do you really love? meaning is love in you? do you accept the person you love as a whole. Love never fail.... love forgive... love has no right or wrong....

LOVE is the most powerful thing that God give to us :)

after Saturday bb, today i know i going to meet you i feel very different my heart was like i cannot wait to see you.... it keep pumping :) fast :)

270312 0104Hrs

BB mood swing is so fast.... .... ...... .... what is so wrong? sigh.... nvm....

260312 1049Hrs

BB is giving me full heart lo :)YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11111

haha i very happy coz i feel bb change :) ...... hug hug bb :)

230312 1916Hrs

Why I cannot surpress this feeling? Grrrr...... Guess tonight will be very hard me.....

...............1732hrs

love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love....... hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt..... if you read it out love and hurt together it become LOVER or Love Her....

very vex... cannot vent anywhere... sigh..... have to keep the pressure till next month..... hope and wish i wont blow off..... gr.... the most powerful explosion is not a nuclear strike. but its from a heart. when you are heart broken,..... NONE ON THIS EARTH HEAR YOU. only you hear it yourself and have to deal with it yourself.........

when i hurt you... i would do whatever it takes to make you feel better.... but guess this is how you can see how deep the love is.....

230312 1634Hrs

I want to hold you till my fear subsides..... can i? guess not coz i am smelly dirty guy.....

weird feeling???? :( ............ can i love you the way you are in jan??? can i hold you??? ...... why the time wont stop there? thats where i wanted to be..... but high level people cannot understand...... :( .......

230312 1622Hrs

Heavy heart.... sad.... mode = deteriorating.....
was happily waiting for weekend, now = mode = heavy heart...
Poor.... negative thinking...= mode = childish....
smoking.... cutting down lots = mode = doing it....
study... = mode = late.... = start...

130312 1600hrs

One day the boy proposed her. Then the girl said, “listen! your monthly salary is my daily hand expenses. Should I be involved with you? How could you thought that? I will never love you. So, forget me ‘n get engaged with someone else of your level.”

But somehow the boy could not forget her so easily.

10 years later.

One day they became face to face in a shopping center. The lady said, “Hey! you! How are you? Now I’m married. Do you know how much is my husband’s salary? Rs. 2 lac per month! Can you imagine? ‘n he is also very smart.”

The guy’s eyes got wet with tear by hearing those words.

After few minutes her husband came before the lady could say something to the guy, her husband started to say by seeing the guy.

“Sir! You here? Meet my wife.” Then he said to her wife, “I’m going to assist a project of sir, which is of Rs. 200 crore. ‘n do u know a fact? Sir loved a girl but he didn’t get her. That’s why still he is unmarried. How much lucky the girl was. Isn’t it? Now a days who can love like that way?”

Moral: Life is not so short. So, don’t be so proud of yourself and damn others. Situations change with time. Every one should respect others love.

230312 1339Hrs

It is just too hard..... really just too hard......

what should i do????

sigh................

230312 1322Hrs

I have finish configure 5 switch 24 port.... heh heh..... with 20 pc yes :) nothing to be proud there's still a lot more to come be prepare... :)

i get knock down, but i get up again, you'll never gonna keep me down.....

argh no game???? today friday WAH...................................................................................................................................

what the hell...... i brought ninja gaiden 3 but ps3 spoil WAH LAU EH.... argh,..,.,.,,.,.,.,.,., freaking angry..... i wanna go out play..... where are all my friend when i need one? &$#^$*(&^ never i will play AVP in my laptop :)

230312 1303hrs

It not offending bb you don realise its HURT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
you are always too busy to say I Miss You
you are always too busy to say sayang u
you are always too busy to say hug you
you are always too busy to say LOVE YOU

today i want to say to you bb... i will take whatever you say.... cause my trial will be over.....but for how long i don know...... whatever happened.... i will take it as a man of sins... i hurt people and getting hurt is what i get also......

God pls help me to overcome this as i know you see my heart are true...
for now i will try not to ask her anything or want her say anything....
God just let her be herself.....

230312 1243Hrs

with u no money no petrol no cash card, all time want stay inside room.....
hurtful words..... shui bian wo?..... ok fine
i didnt get the fact? you assume everything your way....
what so wrong about me? poor? i am not poor in heart, i am not poor with the one i love....
not a sorry from you. still carry on your pride? go ahead......

if you love someone, put it in a circle rather than your heart, cause heart can be broken, but circle will not, it will keep going on and on....

230312 1118Hrs

Recently i study CCNA, i been practicing the command line for configuring switches... now i can easily do a basic configuring of switches.. i am happy... i think this is what i wanna do... sigh... why i didnt think of that earlier.... today i test myself...

i have 5 2950/24 port switch and each 6 pc connecting to each switch :)......
i have a feeling i am going to climb high. in the case i can go beyond what my PHD brother doing.... in 3 to 5 years time... GOD pls check my intention not wanting to show off... but to help in whatever way i can...

i really do know i will succeed.... not matter what comes in my face i will settle it with the power of GOD.... in me i know i can....

i think i should not expect anything from anyone now.... coz i feel the gravity pull in my heart.........

230312 1016Hrs

BB go to ikea with david... i happy she called me after that... but later when she reach home.... after doing all her stuff.... she whatsapp me good night muach muach...
coz i ask her if she is sleeping.... i thought we will call each other talk to each other before sleep.... well never mind.... just now in ym... bb say i have to ask or do something if i want something.... er.....

i got a powerful dream yesterday..... related to bb mom and poh poh.... i thought i wanted to tell bb... guess for now i keep it first...............................................................

my ps3 &$%$#%$# spoil argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i have no where to vent my anger if im angry.... or stress or DL....thats my only revenue..... people will only see its a waste of time playing game, but thats my only entertainment.... BB go ikea why don ask me go? i know i don have ikea card... BB like discount..... but its a way to see each other and build our emotional parts right??? i ask bb when her flight back to medan.... friday afternoon... i wanted to send her but she say i working and office people can send her..... didnt you know i wanted to see you??? its ok.... coming back tuesday.. she say office people can pick her up and can straight to work.....

why it all keep getting worst..... am i thinking negatively??? this stupid trial......

190312 1334Hrs

Last friday, i brought bb to fly around singapore :) bb happy and bb scare haha... turbulence.... for the first time bb touch the cloud and fly in private plane... :) i also brought bb a necklace... i pass it to her in the plane :)

that day bb ask me if i want her to stay over at my place :)..... i am so happy yay!!!!!!!!!!!!! then sat we went to bugis to have her laptop lcd change and bb shopping haha :)

bb it is really great and i am happy that i open my eye first person is you...:) i know its not easy for you :) but i love it so much :) haha :) thanks bb :) bb also buy me a G shock. i love that watch :) hug bb :)

pray that everything go smoothly :) for this, by this year should be able to buy house :) i must save :) bb hold my hand and together we move on and fight for what it is for us :)

160312 0002Hrs

I am starting my CCNA yes....!!!!!! hahaha i am going to be famous.... i will earn lots and lots more for mine and bb future.... :)

150312 2329Hrs

bb say she little bit bore of the relationship.... feeling lost le.....

Bao Bei, Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance ... love will last forever (1 Corinthians 13:4–8a)

i post it once in your Face book.... I would dare say God is with us all along. he will give us strength and make a way for us :)

Love you so much Bao Bei

150312 1200hrs

bb and i was talking yesterday.... bb say will try to give full heart... :) yay!!!!! BB i wanna tell you this, is that no matter you can or not is not i want to see.... is i wanna let you know i love who you are.... so therefor i wish your full heart.... me too need change.... we do it together and we will make it... even if we fail bb.... we can always try again and again and again... :) as long as we don give up on each other :) love bb :)

140312 0113Hrs

bb wrote on my wall i brought special meaning to her life... :) during my birthday :) i miss that...

140312 0046hrs

bb and me argue again.....she know i want this relationship badly....she don want to hurt me.....

(if she have a better choice is she leaving?) i don know but if that happened.... i will have to take it hard.... and i will seal my heart never give away again...

shi wo dong le zhen qing wang bu liao ni... shi fu ni ren jiu yuan yi hui in zhuan yi...

love you bb :)

130312 2136Hrs

missing u is such a painful thing.... why do u have to doubt urself? i cannot understand....aren't we are that good? isnt us good enough?

bb pls let go the wall you build recently.... lets us love each other can we? like i say to you... bb i know you have given your heart to the wrong man before.... but with me i do not know how to sweet talk.... with me you should know that i have give you my full heart... i wish your full heart with me :) bb we stand together and fight ok?

we went to cole bar you say you love your weekend like this.... i love that too you know.... i never wanted to let you go.... bb pls release your defenses, and i assure you will never ever regret... but bb if you continue to built the wall..... i cannot do anything else.

bb be strong.... DL is always here.... don forget that.... but DL also need someone to show love.... bb show DL more love can?..... :)

120312 2303hrs

If my love is all i have to give.... will you still love me??...... many many thing happened.... only when you are with me i feel so comfortable and feel very bless..... i miss those night when i hug you sleep.... but for now it wont happened again.... i am very lost.... you didnt know this, when you are deep in your sleep i woke up and see you sleep so peacefully.... i love that so much... i feel coz i am beside you.. you feel very safe....

but somehow you let me have that feeling, i have become weaker.... but as a knight i am.... the alloy i wore is sturdy enough to protect you from any harm.... i guess the alloy i wear.... keep me safe from something....

whatever misfortune happened to me i don care and i don mind.... as long the first thing i open my eye i see you, everything vanish into the air..... but its not going to happened already.... :( helmet on... keep negative thoughts away.... thats the best i can do....

120312 2243hrs

Even when i wanted to sms you, i also afraid that you busy don want to disturb you... i will keep waiting...... holding your hand is one of the greatest thing i ever had.... :) but the pain of missing you is what i cannot take..... now worst i cannot even go your house..... everyone on earth know we broke up. but though not officially.... i feel like i am living my life in the shadow... jian bu de guang.... :( maybe you don love me that deep yet... but i will hold on..... seeing things like this.... i don know how long more i could take..... alvin, god mom nancy, my friend char, miriam, been praying for us bb :) for our relationship :) i bound our love with jesus :) i wont let go.... but recently my grip been loosing power..... no don let it happen.....

if you can remember, i told you my strength comes love, any type of love. from you, God, friends.... recently i don know who i can talk to anymore...... i am losing that grip.... i don want it to happen....

120312 2237hrs

if you ever love someone so deep.... if you ever miss someone till it hurt...... if you ever....... where are all my friend when i need them? guess i will be alone.... i don want to go back to my old friend..... i am sadden :( what the hell.... confuse...

120312 2225hrs

after so many conversation.... bb still don understand... :( i wont remind you le.... seem like u are always busy and only till the time you left before sleep then have time for me..... sigh.... i will not be having lots time bb..... carry on your busyness ba.... if everything goes smoothly i will start my course next week le...

the feeling of missing someone is so painful..... i will try to cut down that..... didnt we say even busy try saying things like missing each other? guess it wont happened.... i will hide it away.... bb....

next week i will be starting my course lo... i am scare coz i lost something but .... the test is two on one paper... i am worry.... now even worst.... God pls give me strength.... :(...
i will try to make it.... God pls renew me :)

110312 2223Hrs

bao bei suddenly say forget about whatever she say about the expectation..... i don know why..... but something amiss...

Bao bei.... i can only say you really do not understand the suffering of me missing you..... but i guess if i go through this trial, you will be protected...

every moment i think and miss you... wanting you to say you miss me.... it is so very hard for that..... slowly i am trying to take it and swallow it down my throat... in my heart i was crying most of the time.... coz i wanted to hear from you without asking you.... :(

090312 1253Hrs

i helping bao bei to repair laptop hahah.... i surely know whats up with that :)... thanks

090312 0027Hrs

A million words cannot express my feeling towards you bao bei..... wo ai ni shi zhen xin zhen yi. i know why you say that cause you feel hurt when i am not myself.... or because you don wanna hear i always say that i give in this and that..... Bao bei stop smoking is what i have promise you..... i know i fail but in the God name i will succeed... i cannot let you see instant result but i know you can feel my purest heart to you....

i love my birthday this year the happiest BD ever in my life :)... bao bei remember on jan 27 i was very sick and was in your house? you took care of me and i feel that love you have.... and during the second time i was sick you say sorry because you cannot take care of me like you did last time...

in my heart i wish i could stop the time on 27 jan 2012 i want to be sick like this so i can lay in your arms feel all your love :) then you say i mad who wish to be sick.. na ge feng kuang de ren shi wo.... i wanna hug you foever in my arm till my last breath.... bao bei wo ai ni..... :)

080312 1550Hrs

Why after every effort I do still feel like not enough? I just want her to be happy but she everytime Don feel what i am doing for her? It's ok jack..... Do whatever u can do.... Like Jesus a lot ppl don know him but he die for us even ppl he don know too. So jack if god love u so much willing to give his only son. Who r u that because u just hurt and give up? Didn't Jesus suffer more than u? Didn't he is as a human got torture? But he choose to die for us... God love is so great. Didn't u say u slowly understand what love is? Didn't u say love is unconditional like god? So why are u feel hurt? U should be glad that god is in u. Suffering is nothing and at the end of days u wi be reward ....

Thank u lord :)

060312 2337hrs

i cannot understand till now why the face book thingy...... as i say i will take it.... but why i still feel pain..... sigh...

060312 2337hrs

sigh... didnt we say must sensitive towards each other?.. u were too busy watching your drama... no kiss no good night... sigh... whatever you want..........

060312 1905Hrs

i don know why .... i feel very heavy and very unstable... i wish i could hold you in my arm forever.... never wanna let you go... but you choose still to go with what you think it is...
it pain me bb..... really pain me.... when i needed you the most i have to suppress the feeling.... it is so painful and i cannot tell you just why....

i really really love you to a extend i have never in my life i give before..... with that i feel i still could not touch your heart.... ru guo you yi tian, ni fa xian le wo de xin.... ni hai hui jian ci ni de xiang fa ma? wo hui fo de dao ni de zhen xin ma?.....

i have set you in my life, i got no intention to let you out, but bb don let me think otherwise... pls know this, u say u will learn to understand me... but i guess you fall back on that....

050312 1008Hrs

Whatever it is..... if this is what you want... believe me you have not gone through the worst yet.... that pain will change you.... and when you realise..... u will have a very hard time accepting it. by then you will know why.....

i am so badly wounded..... you don know coz in you there are the old me.... we were so good remember? out of the sudden you change..... our stand is never even fought.... it was given up in the begining..... but you have a new stand..... i have to swallow it.... if not i will face the end like what you decide.... did i force you? or did i make you do the thing you never like?..... maybe you don know this yet but, i am a knight... i have a sword and shield and armor..... from the past i have my sword and shield broken.... all left with my armor...

and with you i protect you with every bit of my life and my armor.... with my bare fist.... and all i have... that armor have been break by you which you don know...... i have said before... if this armor break.... trust me i wont even survive.... why do you have to kill me like this? now the armor is crack and i have been fixing it.... in my heart i never wanted for it to be crack or break.... i love you really much and deep.... remember i empower that right to you? in hope you wont hurt me.... but in fact you did it.... on 1st march.... u really don know how much i was hurt...

do you understand my hurt.... where it came from and how it can be worst? somehow i feel you understand.... but you still go on with your principle and your way of doing..... mine was never even consider....

030312 0241Hrs

bb yesterday we argue a lot... its about the cruel fact i have to give in and take if not i face a break up.... few days after i say sorry to my ex after hurting her for so many years... she told me something very very very shocking...

she pray to God a prayer.... and that prayer was i will go through her pain faster and change me to a better person..... i accepted that as a man of sin.... thanks from the bottom of my heart i really say thank you...

bb we are at pungol.... we argue again... i am very sadden... i know you will be angry... remember i said to you whatever i do i did that to protect you.... i really mean it... i don want you to suffer like i did... too into something i thought i grown up and taught with... bb hear this.. i will never ever want you to suffer.... as i am now.... i suffer not because of you or your expectation... but god is clearly telling you something... and making me through this trial.... and there's one more trial i will have to go through.... i am so afraid of that trial...

My lord i know it unfair for me asking you of this but let not that trial come true.... it will really kill me and i will not be able to stand.. as i remember i pray to you this for my bb wei xin. if any misfortune thing where to happened on wei xin.... let it be me... amen... for as in now i understood, most thing... but my lord pls don let that horrible trial happen to me. pls my lord i repent to you now....amen...

270212 1141Hrs

i sad.... happy... mixed up feeling.... why.... i have this feeling... what my EX felt last time.... if this is real and thats what im getting... mean there is a worst trial i have to face.... i really dont know if i have the strength to face it....... pls my lord its your will, i will face it.... but pls heal me.... at the end....

070212 19558hrs

no meaning to bd........ no new start..... falling back....... ............. see if reaching limit.......

070212 1955hrs

............. here goes...... bd..... without......something..... nothing is something when nothing is mention...... asking obvious thing is so heart breaking and didnt even realise........ ..........................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................

0239hrs 310112

Wanting to hear someone to say I love u is so Fucking damn difficult......
It hurt like Fucking shit....

Fine ..... Do it ur way I have none to say.....

300112 0138hrs

bb and dl have been through going to be 3 month. yay!!!! but things happened also. i understand i am constructing myself to a different person like God command.

bb say must be sensitive towards each other, but just now things happen. sigh....