Monday 16 April 2012

160412 0947Hrs

yesterday bb and i have a great time :) bb say sorry to me.... being cruel to me but i still love her so much she is touch :)

yay BB i love you :)

we work hard together so no need to say sorry anymore :)

Monday 9 April 2012

090412 1052Hrs A Silence Love

a story i just saw....

a girl name peng... and her deaf and mute father ah kim.. every day morning Kim wake up early send peng to school, he send her by his motor bike. when alight Kim show some hand sign. Peng walk away... when during lunch time in school, a classmate of Peng wrote on a paper "daughter of a stupid deaf mute father" paste it on her back...
she got angry and fight... later that night... Kim was having diner with her. show some hand sign... Peng walk away... in peng she only wish that she can have a better father.... she got frustrated....

Peng came home late with her boyfriend sending her back... Kim angry show some hand sign... Peng run up to her room... that night was Peng birthday. Kim brought a cake.
he wrote a note. "peng i am not a perfect father, i am born mute and deaf i am very very very sorry.... but i am a father that love you with every single thing of me. without withhold" "Love from papa Kim"

suddenly a sound came out from Peng Room.. Kim run up and try opening the door, it was lock. Kim bash through it. found Peng cut her wrist... Kim rush her to hospital...

when the nurse and doctor rush her to the operating theater.... Kim show a lot hand sign... the doctor was very touch and stunned by Kim act....

The hang sign show to the doctor was... "PLEASE SAVE MY DAUGHTER I GIVE YOU MY HOUSE, MY NOODLE STORE, MY MOTOR BIKE, AND MY LIFE AS A SLAVE TO YOU JUST SAVE MY DAUGHTER PLEASE DOCTOR PLEASE I BEG YOU, YOU HAVE TO SAVE HER."

when the nurse say to the doctor Peng is losing a lot blood. Kim show hand sign.. " PLEASE TAKE MY BLOOD NOW!!!!!!!!! "

In the midst of transferring blood.. all things become clear... During Kim send Peng to school... "Study hard Peng, then you will have a good future"

during dinner " you must eat more peng, so you will grow taller and taller and grow up faster"

during Peng came home Late... "Peng i know you are angry with father, but watch your time. its late father is very worried about you."

Now peng is lying beside her father.... she move her hand to hold on to her father hand.... but just to see her father is lying there with his eyes close... Peng cried so hard.... and wish she never ever wish she wanted a better father....
and she realize she already have a very very very good father all along.... is just that she didnt notice it until things happened..

Thursday 5 April 2012

050412 1419Hrs

things have change.... somehow i know..... its a miracle that we are together.... pls don make it harder for me..... we are so good yet feeling a little far.... cang zai wo xin li, zhui hou yi ju qi shi hai ai ni.....

050412 1224Hrs

bb be happy la, what is so wrong that you must be like this? did i do something wrong again? just what is wrong?????? sigh.................................................................................................................................................

050412 1213Hrs

Be still..... jack you are being a fool for this...... why are you being such weakling.... you used to be smart, carefree, happy laugh about at almost everything, what have you become?.....

Wednesday 4 April 2012

040412 1658Hrs

I really am curse..... feeling something i am not suppose to feel.... a restricted zone..... thought sometime i could use it to help people, when it comes to me.... it hurt coz i knew the person motive and what they wanna to. i did nothing to stop them....

yesterday it happened to my mother towards me... sigh sad but truth.... i know whats her intention. yet i cannot stop.... its a curse....

040412 1648Hrs

Being emotional honest is damn hard.....

040412 0023hrs

when you ask me a question, i answer, you are only giving two option that you ask.. and when my answer is different.... you seem not interested to hear... spoiling the whole day spoiling the mood.....

knowing you are tired you don talk much.... i always put myself in your position think for you and this is what i get?.... great.... are you tired to the extend that after 4 days of not seeing me you got nothing to say to me?....

but you have the strength to work??? this is totally what i cannot understand.... if this is you then get going.... missing you and longing to see you mean nothing to you...

i hope you know what you are doing.... it seems like you want thing your way to me... cant see the different? you are just been unreasonable sometime... most of the time you don even know or what you say have impact on me....

isnt that you want thing your way?????? is this the way you love me?....... i know after hearing this you will be uncomfortable.... imagine how i was feeling inside.....its worst....