Saturday 19 January 2013
Friday 18 January 2013
Thursday 17 January 2013
Monday 14 January 2013
140113 0840Hrs
As i was browsing around in facebook. found many old friends :) and i also notice a lot them have already married and have children liao.... i look at them and i look at myself....
here i am being always trouble by love..... what the heck man..... i have wasted enough time.I don want to waste anymore....
Enough is enough..... Sorry i have to go...
here i am being always trouble by love..... what the heck man..... i have wasted enough time.I don want to waste anymore....
Enough is enough..... Sorry i have to go...
140113 0529Hrs
我的手握著方向盤
眼神停留在陌生的前方
週末夜晚擁擠的路上
我們能不能走到山頂上
你就坐在我的身旁
為什麼心卻生活在他方
周圍夜色如此得迷亂
沉默中聽見不安的試探
你愛我嗎
我可以這樣問你嗎
你愛我嗎
你給我的溫柔是寂寞嗎
你愛我嗎
你心裡還有遺憾嗎
你是真的愛我嗎
城市裡燈火正輝煌
我們的未來在什麼地方
週末夜晚天空正閃亮
幸福是不是還握在手上
你就靠在我的肩膀
為什麼心卻沉沒在遠方
窗外天空依然還溫暖
歎息中發現不只是不安
你愛我嗎
我可以這樣問你嗎
你愛我嗎
你給我的溫柔是寂寞嗎
你愛我嗎
你心裡還有遺憾嗎
你是真的快樂嗎
你愛我嗎
你這樣問過自已嗎
你愛我嗎
你給我的擁抱是習慣嗎
你愛我嗎
你的心裡還是唯一嗎
你愛我嗎
你是真的愛我嗎
眼神停留在陌生的前方
週末夜晚擁擠的路上
我們能不能走到山頂上
你就坐在我的身旁
為什麼心卻生活在他方
周圍夜色如此得迷亂
沉默中聽見不安的試探
你愛我嗎
我可以這樣問你嗎
你愛我嗎
你給我的溫柔是寂寞嗎
你愛我嗎
你心裡還有遺憾嗎
你是真的愛我嗎
城市裡燈火正輝煌
我們的未來在什麼地方
週末夜晚天空正閃亮
幸福是不是還握在手上
你就靠在我的肩膀
為什麼心卻沉沒在遠方
窗外天空依然還溫暖
歎息中發現不只是不安
你愛我嗎
我可以這樣問你嗎
你愛我嗎
你給我的溫柔是寂寞嗎
你愛我嗎
你心裡還有遺憾嗎
你是真的快樂嗎
你愛我嗎
你這樣問過自已嗎
你愛我嗎
你給我的擁抱是習慣嗎
你愛我嗎
你的心裡還是唯一嗎
你愛我嗎
你是真的愛我嗎
Sunday 13 January 2013
130113 1816Hrs
MARRIED OR NOT, YOU SHOULD READ THIS ...
“When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.
... Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?
I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her!
With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.
The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.
In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.
This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.
I told Jane about my wife’s divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.
My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.
On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.
On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.
She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.
Suddenly it hit me… she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.
Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.
But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office…. jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind…I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.
She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won’t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I’ll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.
That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed -dead. My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push through with the divorce.— At least, in the eyes of our son—- I’m a loving husband….
The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves.
So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!
If you don’t share this, nothing will happen to you.
If you do, you just might save a marriage. Many of life’s failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up. ♥
“When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.
... Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?
I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her!
With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.
The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.
In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.
This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.
I told Jane about my wife’s divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.
My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.
On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.
On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.
She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.
Suddenly it hit me… she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.
Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.
But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office…. jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind…I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.
She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won’t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I’ll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.
That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed -dead. My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push through with the divorce.— At least, in the eyes of our son—- I’m a loving husband….
The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves.
So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!
If you don’t share this, nothing will happen to you.
If you do, you just might save a marriage. Many of life’s failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up. ♥
Saturday 12 January 2013
120113 0046 HRS
Sigh.... mind torturing.... Another freaking mind game (*%$&..... totally lost it.... go ahead your way.... may your next be able to work it out with you.....
Mind set all wrong still upholding it.... you are the one that say you don care so hope you don ever regret saying that.
Mind set all wrong still upholding it.... you are the one that say you don care so hope you don ever regret saying that.
Friday 11 January 2013
110113 1735Hrs
Hmm 3rd day no reply... ok i think i have to make up my mind. really am wasting time....
Thursday 10 January 2013
100113 0304Hrs
The only thing that keeps me loving you is the hope that maybe-maybe you’ll love me back someday
100113 0252Hrs
I´ve always wanted her to love me the way I loved her. She did love me, I know she did. Just not the way I wanted her to… I’d always secretly believed that a love as fierce and true as mine would be rewarded in the end, and now I was being forced to accept the bitter truth
Tuesday 8 January 2013
010813 0233Hrs
..... my first post in 2013.... strange i have facebook but im still here :) i don know why my brain always work so powerfully at night..... Lord please help me.... cant sleep....
Recently i realise i did a lot things to hurt someone.... i am truly sorry. then again what i am going through now is what i've done back to me.... well, i accepted le....
wo ai ni, dan que huan lai bei shang.... zhi xiang ting ting ni de sheng yin, dan ni que bu hui zhu dong....nan ren ye xu yao ren teng... yin xiong ye yao rou qing ban.... kan lai, wo de gan qing lu hen shi kan ke.... bei shang le hen jiu, ye bu zhi dao zhe mei shou...
na zhong bei shang de gan jue hao zhen shi.... tong de wo mei fa shuo chu kou... xiang zhao ren liao shi, que you shuo bu chu kou.... mao dun....
Recently i realise i did a lot things to hurt someone.... i am truly sorry. then again what i am going through now is what i've done back to me.... well, i accepted le....
wo ai ni, dan que huan lai bei shang.... zhi xiang ting ting ni de sheng yin, dan ni que bu hui zhu dong....nan ren ye xu yao ren teng... yin xiong ye yao rou qing ban.... kan lai, wo de gan qing lu hen shi kan ke.... bei shang le hen jiu, ye bu zhi dao zhe mei shou...
na zhong bei shang de gan jue hao zhen shi.... tong de wo mei fa shuo chu kou... xiang zhao ren liao shi, que you shuo bu chu kou.... mao dun....
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