Thursday 25 June 2015

250615 1726hrs

well, many things happened. I'm getting a house finally. damn happy about it. yet the relationship is very unstable. look here, im not selfish like others say. but yet most of the time, when things happened you always wanted to bait out. so this time i let you choose no need to ask me i agree or not. i did try to change to a better person, but you on the other hand, is giving me the feeling of, Thats not good enough. i have to think like this or like that.

going thru all this wasnt easy, i didnt even say that you have no right. did i say i will copy the key to you? yet you choose to be thinking on the other way itself. what more can i say. i can tell you this, you are saying this for the 3rd time. and it really hurt me quite a bit.


To let you know, you never did understand me to a certain degree. what you know is that, i have to be understanding to how you felt and i have to deal with it. no matter what my condition is. That really turn me away sometime. Almost all women have problem with me and i don know why. perhap i really cannot get married again. coz i am so afraid of it after my first failed marriage. but, anyway, if this is my fate i will accept it, and move forward again.

Last but not least, if every single time we argue about things or something else, your reaction is saying maybe i should leave you alone. tell you honestly this sentences hurt fucking big time. the relationship will not be stable if this happen almost all the time.

if what you think that is the best idea of getting message across. then i have no say.