Saturday 4 July 2015

040715 1821hrs

I'm feeling so down. I don know what is it. Well, just felt betray? Or something else? I don't know.... I don't know what should I feel. Maybe how should I feel?

A week have passed, since me and my gf didn't talk to each other much. Well I guess that is it? My Canada friend visited singapore, but guess who he visited? My ex gf Josephine and family. Wow, just wow. Well maybe I didn't let it go? Or maybe I am jealous? I really don't know.

I didn't think too much of my gf and our problem. Coz I am tired and max out from this unstable relationship. I wouldn't want to have things like this happened. Any argument becomes a subject for her to compromise our relationship, break up.

It's so heart breating, I told her she left me with that feeling twice. Yet I don't know if she is even listening. I am just tired.
now that is the 3rd time now. I don't know if I can go on once again. God, I cry out to u, I need you. Help me.... Amen