Back to square one..

Well, i remember i ORD from the army in the year 2005. my first job was a private investigator. and i think thats the best job i ever have in my life. i miss those time and everything of it. my boss David and patrick. both are good and kind, first i really fucking dislike patrick. but later i kinda become more closer to him. but whatever it is. its over. today while i was looking for a new job i found this PI job again.

i don know why i buy the newpaper in the first place. but, seem like God know my heart After all these years. actually with all my skill and courage. i boldly say that no one could ever be like me. no one will have the guts to charge the car to max. beat red light, chase on foot and all. no one snipe like i do. patient i have while i snipe. all and all its me being me. my boss like me so much. BUT, because i have a super bad temper later days i quit due to certain reason.

Actually i really regret, i realise that what ever job i have after the PI, all is worthless. i miss being with them. i remember i went to sydney for a week. i call them up, this show i really into it and i can't let go of it. i miss the job. i love my boss.........

New year eve...

hey i'm back. you know new year eve, i was helping my dad selling his noodle. was super busy, i have met countless of customer so be it, super nasty or good MEAN nothing to me. but, got one uncle far more worst than evil himself, shouted at me. asking why he waited for so long. well, i tell you, i tell him very nicely i say in hokkien. can you talk nicely? he don give a damn. i got hot, but still supressing my inner devil. my dad, usually super hot temper, clam the whole thing down. but, that stupid ass uncle, went on and on shouting and talking cock. scolded us bastard. i was REAL HOT now. you know what. my dad burst out shiting him all the bad words you could not ever imagine. in the public. last i know from my parent that this uncle was a doctor. SHIT HIM MAN. this is how he should do thing??? fuck him. in the end i shit him too. hahaha. what i'm so happy about if you ask. thats the first time my dad and i combine forces to shit someone. that stupid doctor FOR REAL RUN AWAY hahahahaha..... Now i know my dad and mom. they really suffer a lot from younger days till now. i can see the picture from old days. they really getting older. I NOW MAKE THIS PRAYER TO MY FATHER IN HEAVEN. FATHER, MY LORD, IF THERE'S ONE THING YOU CAN GIVE ME, IF I CAN, SACRIFY MY LIFE AND PROLONG MY FAMILY LIFE LONGER..... I HAVE NO REGRET.. I HAVE LET THEM DOWN SO MANY TIME COUNTLESS OF TIME. I HOPE THIS WILL COMPENSATE THEM... MY LORD, MY KING. IN JESUS POWERFUL NAME I PRAY AMEN.

Set me free.....

If I leave here tomorrow Would you still remember me? For I must be travelling on, now, 'Cause there's too many places I've got to see. But, if I stayed here with you, girl, Things just couldn't be the same. 'Cause I'm as free as a bird now, And this bird you can not change. Lord knows, I can't change.
Bye, bye, its been a sweet love. Though this feeling I can't change. But please don't take it badly, 'Cause Lord knows I'm to blame. But, if I stayed here with you girl, Things just couldn't be the same. Cause I'm as free as a bird now, And this bird you'll never change. And this bird you can not change. Lord knows, I can't change. Lord help me, I can't change.

Real thing behind your WORDS

Well, recently i try to notice more onto people words, i mean what they say. sometime even after i know of something. but i just want someone to say it honestly to me i will FORGIVE. but if not i find it very hard for me to accept. i know that i'm a christian i should forgive anyone. in this particular part i'm still trying. why do people hide things from anyone? many reason, but, he more common reason is doing it without letting you knowing. in a way testing of searching deep in you and try to make certain concludsion in you. ggggggrrrrrrr.................. THATS UNACCEPTABLE. but i could not do anything to it. what fuck??????????????? what is wrong with this people man...... fucking shit........ i don give a damn now anymore. i live the way i want to live isn't it anyone esle wanted? but due to certain circumstances, people CHANGE.... we let people stick their finger onto our nose and tell us what to do. and when thing happen. its always because of him or she. coward do that but I AM NOT. if you think you're worth for, then go out and get what you are worth for BUT, you must be willing to TAKE the HIT.