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if u think u clean cut cutting of the relationship. why do u need to ask ur rebound boyfriend hide his face book and urs? doing something behind my back? feeling funny now?

YES coz u did something behind my back. and thats the reason.....

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send me a msg to my facebook, saying that i accepted her facial paraylsis is so BIG THING....

coz now you have regain your confidence and you and a guy with you all beautiful thing become bad....

if you are normal find facial paraylsis boyfriend and take him out see if your heart is BIG enough.....

using my weakness killing me everything you can think of, you use it against ME. JOSEPHINE CHUA you WILL FOR SURE REGRET HOW YOU TREAT ME TODAY NEVER NEVER NEVER EVER REGRET WITH YOUR REBOUND BOYFRIEND NOW.

YOU WILL REGRET I KNOW IT. YOU USE ME AS A FUCKING STEPPING STONE. AFTER YOU FIX YOUR FACE, YOU THINK YOU ARE VERY BEAUTIFUL? THINK AGAIN ITS GOD THAT GIVE YOU THE CHANCE TO SMILE NORMALLY AGAIN DON YOU EVER FORGET THAT. USE GOD NAME IN VAIN. ITS A MISTAKE YOU HAVE DONE. IF YOUR FACE FALL BACK INTO YOUR FORMER SHADOW PLS DO NOT CRY. COZ GOOD THING GOD GIVE YOU ACCEPT, BAD THING FROM GOD YOU ALSO HAVE TO ACCEPT.

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其實我非常愛你　不想失去你　難道我沒有權利說我不願意　你給了他的吻　雖然只有餘溫　可知道我多渴望抓住你的心
我知道他很愛你　你怕他傷心　我每天假裝開心　害怕你離去　可不可以任性　求求你不要去　藏在我心裡　最後一句　其實還愛你

痛的感覺證明了愛的深淺

Heartache again.... :(

today morning when i wake up... i rub my eyes, i feel something wet at the corner of my eyes... TEARS.... now i remember. before i sleep, i have heartache again...... i don know why......

i am not like i use to be.... though at work infron of friends i am normal... but none understand and will not know whats deep down in my heart.... :( i feel kinda a sour feeling something not pain but just cramp feeling in my heart..... i lost my soul in a way....

it takes a long time for me to trust a person. if it comes to a person i love its fixed forever but things happened..... ............... ........... ............. .......... ............. ..............................

giving it up sound easy. but not easy when you really have to. none my buddy is away for like 2 month i am so alone even surrounded by people...... my heart is so freaking weak...... why??????

i want to be strong pls God make my heart strong :)  today i play games again..... finally after one month plus i slowly play it back.... i was playing god of war. a game i play way back in 2005. someone brought for me as birthday present. as i play lots of memories came back i stop.....

i cannot play game like i used to be. almost every games i play have many memory with someone......

aching again....... i want to stop this.... i want to go back to my usual life.... i want to be alive once more.

i never though this aching and be so painful.......

i have become lesser me..... i was being put back to my former shadow......

:(

why do i still miss her????? why is it i cannot get over? is it coz still fresh? i don wanna have this feeling.....

recently i keep remembering all those good memory of her..... things we have fun laugh, cry sad.

5th weekend without her..... i miss that hug..... i know she is happily hugging another guy now, weekend better than the past. holding hand running around. thinking of that make my life very misrable. but i have to step on the gas. i cannot get left behind.

kissing a guy after breaking up in lesser than 2 week. what a girl......

don forget that i love you as you are. most of your friend are all your same kind..... but i will step out of it. when i get serious, i wont hesitate to charge infront, even it mean death.....

pressing on the weakness of a person..... fuck up reason to use. hurt me like no tomorrow.....

If you see this

If you see this... i'm going to move on... Pls do really take care of yourself.... you always wanted to share your dream with me. i know... but what about mine??? its always about you you you. i will try not to shed tears for you anymore...... tears are for someone i would die for now on..... today... i wrote this with a heavy heart.

all this while, everything i do, i do it for you. but, you really don see it in my point. always my temper always my vulgar always my weakness. fine..... make sure you don have weakness.... if you have pray about that. coz God make you this way..... God knows you. Be strong on your self-esteem... if you really cant do it.... it will cost you even more.... bye......

Things just don work out...

why all just don work out? Loving a person with all become null when she just give up....... i cannot understand why. as much as i wanted to know. she cut it off.

WHY WONT YOU JUST TALK????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

If i am the one to say break off, and after 7 years i tell you i cannot accept your face, will you find it unacceptable????? and when i cut off communication not a chance for you to say a thing. will u be happy? things you do now is clearly clouded. But, you already started a new relationship just weeks after break off. clearly you don LOVE me anymore... Since you know him for a year.... i would say you have this all planned.

You say you will become soft hearted when talk to me. but, since u are so confirm wanted to break up then why soft hearted? confuse isn't it? remember how we felt in love? remember all things? now it become all ugly..... i just cannot bring myself to say "i hate you" those words never were in my heart......

i really hope you can consider it properly. coz it will be very difficult to go on, when you finally realise that you have been clouded.

I protected you from all things. i don give a damn how others look at me. its you.... i cant let people mock you or insult you. most of my friend know i will give my life up just too protect you. but you chose to leave...
its a very cruel and very hard reset for me..................

change??

today i understand 7 years ago someone heart is there. but 7 years later when after people she met and influence. her heart have change...... things we need change.....

Why does it still hurt.......

Deep in me i know it hurt like HELL no worst than HELL..... i am alright for a while but it keeps coming back.... someone have move on..... it hurt......

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certainly when the time comes...... people regret what they done.... for me though pain still i have to move on... hurricane is name after woman name.... if you know what i meant.

i thought i have get over with..... love the wrong fucking person..... hurt my fucking heart..... let's see if it last....

ah wang a character born in me die in me.  forever never ever return. sometime though at night, i speak as ah wang its even more painful..... slowly picking up my heart..... i move..... slowly.... GOD take this pain away PLS....

i wish i never met you.... steal my heart and break it to millions.....

how you fall in love with me????

you say i talk well remember????? xiao ding dang --- bian ren *ahwang* voice. you say you want to take me home to feed me and you say i very cute.....

Shi Tou---- when i wake up......

A grey world.....

I'm quite sad about the world of mine........ but God assure it that my personality is a perfect one...  coz God create me know me love me. never ever forsake me.

My life is in a bit mess up right now..... painful as it is.....