160515 0325hrs

today one of my church friend talk to me, the way he talk I can feel that he is a practical person. I really hate what he said. Please come on, u should understand there's a limitation to what a person can do. Telling me I don care u have to get it done. Please u r a Fucking fool. Even the world smartest person also have things he don know, how can u say such unfair statement?

Fuck to you bro, really and when I'm trying to explain to u, u keep saying ur point and u don care about what I said. Then I won't give u face. When do u think I must listen to u and u not listening to me? Fuck you!!!!!!! 

Recently I'm so down emotionally yet no one is here for me. I really felt something is ending, sigh be it if I make a decision. FamilY all along not been supportive. Not matter what u do or did. You won't feel appreciated. I felt it is hurtful. I am damn happy that I gonna have a house. But.....

Human people, I don know how long I could take it before I snap.

My heart keep losing hope.... God please renew me. I couldn't just give up. Right now I am so extremely sad and down. But even my close and love ones didn't feel something is not right with me... 

Yet I'm always giving in to a certain extent.... How long will this last ?