Sunday, 9 October 2011

hurt bad...

:( :( :( :( :(

why???     am i????????  worthless???????     thank you for eveything and everything.........

i realise i cannot love anymore...... really....... am i to go for my calling...... ?????    i am so not ready......../????   i am becoming a shadow of my former self....... i miss you miss you miss you miss you.......

I really have give everything............ why????...............????.........  you left.........????? i wont love anyone anymore........ not because i lost you......... because i have lost MYSELF....... so much........ so much i cannot take it very very very very very very very very very very very very very very deep deep deep deep deep deep deep deep down in my heart.............  i wish i can be taken away ok ???????......... why stilllllllll painful??????????? ................ pain pain pain pain pain pain.......... loving a person that you not suppose to love........ i cannot control........ i am very stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid.................

God give me wisdom.... pls why am i so fucking stupid?????? aaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

you have already decided to be with who in the start... why lead me on??????

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