you been nice and all but very unforgiving.... say you forgive in the end you keep in your heart. when in arguement you bring out all the past. is this the way you forgive?
when god forgive people and he say i can forgive you but cannot forget what you did. then what will you think? forgive is everything. but you just don wanna to talk... i send the sms just to kill your heart. coz i want you to be even more confirm that our relationship is over.
come to think to it. all our issue can be overcome. but you bait out, that not it, you simply break up out of your emotion stress and mess up. don even know what you wanted in this relationship. today if you are me, and your temper and your stress. i for sure will tell you, you have already kill yourself.... think im joking?
when you say you did it on purpose, why is it you come to this point without even talking to me. you always assume thats the way which in fact, its not. keeping silent is not good and wanting me to sense what you have in your mind its total unacceptable. i am no GOD.....
you say i say cruel things to you. so what are the cruel thing? you believe it or not i did not meant to hurt you. but you keep saying i am hurting you.... now how you want me to say???? the way you break up its total freaking heart breaking for me. 3 weeks you have a new guy.... stop telling me that you have feeling for him after our break up. coz thats totally a LIE.... why since you have known him for years plus, if you have not taken interest in him, how is it possible to develop feeling so fast? i really cannot understand.
don say i love myself more than you. coz you really don know. if i am willing to sacrifice my life for you. it mean you are so important to me. you deny that when you know the truth. it hurt me even more when you say now nothing happened so you don need my protection. everyone have weakness. don always look at the weakness. you say i mind your facial paraylsis? how so???? you say i never help much in your operation? how you want me to help???
you feel insecure with me, when i ask you what am i suppose to do to make you feel secure? you say you don know.... all this are because your are mess up emotionall, which can be settle after a cool period but, you choose to leave.
lets say if we are married, and this happened are you going to divorce? or try to salvage the love we once hold so dear to? that day you yourself know i am trying to save our relationship. you freaking knew it but you just step on it. pressing my heart on the ground then stepping on it with great force..
worst part is that you know i have improvment but not good enough for you???? since you already know i have change but why did you have to put this onto me? i saw our past years SMS, you were saying "i dunna break up, mei mei and missy saying sorry to bee bee and wang wang" now tellin you cannot accept me after 7 years you fail trying to change me?
i never ever try to change you in any fact. but in fact there's one thing about you really need to change. thats your mentality. you are so narrow minded. you just simply cannot open up your mind to think otherwise. all these years when you want thing your ways have i ever abuse you to that extend? yes i may be angry for a while but after that i will be good wont i?
and why i angry? is still all the pressure around me you my family.... but you only will understand fom your point of view why it only must be you... you just cannot stand on my point. today if your mother is the one having problem with me. all thing are the same how would you feel and handle that? are you able to give me a perfect answer? don you think you will have that anger in you too? and where there's no other option for you the ventilate your emotion, where can you go???
so what happened to you when i can tell you infront of your face "i don give a fuck o your mother anymore" doesn't it will hurt the one you love and you? have you ever think in this point? if you have give me a better choice. 7 years of relationship ended the way it shouldn't have....
sex life... in the start did i told you about i really have high sex drive.... we use to have 3 to 4 time a week. but recent years, we start to have once a week. in this area you always say i freak horny and want you to blow me when im playing game or when you are tired. this are not that hurting thing to do. did i not ask yu if you are tired???? and your thinking is "if i don blow you i will get angry" hey you are simply trying to make things worst.
whatever it is, i know there's no hope anymore in regard of our relationship.... just wanted you to know, you are always using things i hurt you in the past to hurt me back without knowing it yourself. kenix diane..... and all. after your operation, you regain your confidence. what you lack once you are ready to full force all out to get it. and forgotten our happy time together. the missing you part all have gone. i know i have said hurtful thing to you. but during heat arguement who don say hurtful thing? and all in all we don meant those hurtful words. but you take it so hard on yourself.
my love, both of us is in adult love not puppy love. if all thing problem above i mention was not settle, and what do you think will happened in our marriage life, it could have been worst.
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